Tomorrow is the finale. My final paper. And I am still wasting my time blogging. I hope I can score well. It is a pretty easy paper. Provided the UOL examiners don't change the trend of questions. After that, I am a freeman. Can't wait for 5.30pm to come. After that I am going to trim my eyebrow at Jean Yip, colour my hair and perhaps go for a waffle with Hwee. Gelare Cafe half price for waffle on Tues! *grins*

Talking about eating, my monster-like appetite has finally started to go off. Its toning down. But damage is already done. Now is a grumbling session for me whenever I look myself into the mirror or when I changed up to go for gai-gai. I have increased in size... My flabby arms are getting flabbier, my tree trunk like thighs are getting more trunky, my round face is getting rounder. Grrrrrrr...... I am going swimming everyday. But that's gonna spoil my already half-dead hair. No choice, I gotta sacrifice either one. I know you people are going to say: Aiya choose other kind of sports like running or gym or squash lar... But I don't like the feeling of sweating all over and getting sticky. So swimming is the best choice out.

I am going to do a courageous act later. It's sort of like make it or break it stuff. But I am gonna try it out anyway. Even if I fail, it doesn't make anything worse coz situation is already at its worst stage. So well, no harm taking the deal. I am not gonna lose anything. Will update u people later.

Got my stuff planned for Wednesday. Going for two tuitions in the morning till afternoon then rushing back home to get changed up. Down town for a dinner with my 3 darling girls. It's my birthday celebration! Yippeee... It has been such a long time since the four of us can sit down to have a meal. After that, it's a party down to XXXX. *laughs* You people know lar huh. It's WEDNESDAY night. *hint hint*

As for Thursday, no plans YET. My mind is a blank. It is going to be sucky I think. Haiz...

Right, going back to study. Hope I can do well for tomorrow's paper. My previous 3 papers are already cannot make it.

Before I post anything I would like to direct your attention to the top right hand corner of this blog. See the number 02061983? Yeap that's my birthday! Can't you see that it's approaching?
*grins* Next Thursday!!!

Bad news for me. My planned Tioman trip has gotta be postpone to July coz of some unforseen circumstances. I am dying for a holiday. Just want to get out of Singapore and let me forget about everything here. But well seems like god won't let me to. I can only hope now that I can really go Tioman during July.

The long awaited Great Singapore Sales is finally here! Weeeee.... I think I am going to burn a hole in my pocket this month. Maybe it's not a bad idea to go Tioman on July huh. At least I won't have to declare bankrupt for June. *laughs*

Went Orchard yesterday. Cause I have to update my Levi's club points by Saturday before it expires. Wow seems like I have not go town for quite sometime. Everything on the display window seems so different and new. Looks like I have been caged up for too long. Got myself a green pretty top from 77th Street and hair bleach and dye from Basic Beauty. Yeah gonna colour my hair after my exams. Hope it will turn out well, if not I will be screaming my way down to a hair saloon. Damn spent money again yesterday. I am super broke recently cause I cancelled all my tuitions due to exams. No tuition = No money!!!

And I am still on a winning streak for mahjong. Consecutive 4 wins. Break record! Lalala... But did not win alot lar... Should be happy for not losing money already. I am a very easily contented person you know. But of course I will be more than happy to win lotsa money. Noelle was the big winner yesterday. Won 60 over bucks and went home with her wallet fat and heavy. I think it is becoming a habit for us to go over to Siew Hwee's house for mahjong every weekend. Her house is becoming a permanent gambling den for us. Lolz...

Talking about my darling Hwee... She is so cute. She stood up during "east wind" on Monday when we had our mahjong session. She didn't know that it will be suay. Until me and Noelle told her about it. But it was already too late. And know why she stood up? Not cause she was urgent to go toilet. But to feed hamsters with long beans!!! Stupid reason right... And true enough she really suay from that day till now not only on the mahjong table but her daily life as well. So obvious enough, she was the big loser yesterday... And to add salt onto her wound, Noelle and I kept blaming her suay-ness on the "east wind" until she was so frustrated. *laughs* So moral of the story? Keep ur ass on the chair through the whole "east wind".

Just came back from Mambo.
Tonight's Mambo is weird!!! Or should I say abnormal??? First of all, I forgot to bring my IC!!! *laughs* I discovered it when I reached there and was frantically searching my whole wallet for it. Guess I almost tore my wallet apart. Peng looked at me with eyes wide opened and claimed that he would kill me if I didn't managed to get in. I dragged him down to accompany me for Mambo and he gotta lied to get out of camp you see. In the end, I took out my student card but my card doesn't state my IC number... So I took out my whatever privilege card that bore my IC number. Showed the bouncer both the cards and told him that I forgot to bring my IC!!! Luckily he was kind enough to let me in.

When we were on the dance floor, a fight broke out just beside me, and I didn't realised it until they were about to fight. Luckily both sides of their friends pulled them apart fast enough. That's the problem with me which Hwee always complain about. I am a super oblivious and unobservant freak, especially when I am dancing. Next, another fight broke out near the ladies podium. Caused a slight havoc and everyone was stretching their necks as long as possible to see what happened. Me inclusive. Haha. Did not encounter fights on the dance floor at Zouk before, through my so many trips down there. First time.

And the mixture of music spinned tonight was kind of weird. Not so up to standard tonight. Can't really spur me high. And most importantly... the DJ didn't spin my favourite song Summer Rain!!! Boo hoo hoo... I was waiting for the song the whole night but it didn't came. And when all the lights were on I was still abit reluctant to leave, hoping that the DJ will play the song. But he didn't! Humph!

I was starving and asked Peng for supper. But he said he was too tired to go and asked me go home cook maggie mee. Stupid. So I went home. Starving. I am so hungry now.

I am still thinking of him. I know I am so useless and silly but I just can't help thinking of him. It has already been quite sometime. I tried to keep myself occupied. With revision and friends. I don't get so emotional nowadays unlike how I was like when it just happened, making myself feel so terrible, but deep down inside I still think of him. I don't know why I am so useless. I didn't realised that I fell so hard. Perhaps time will prove everything. Perhaps I need more time. Sometimes I just feel like grabbing someone available to be my boyfriend to speed up the process of getting over him. But I know that won't help and I will be creating more disasters. It is not fair to both myself and the poor guy. I think the only thing that can help is to let me meet a guy who is better than him. But so far none in sight. I don't have high expectations but of course there are certain criteria I am looking for and it's difficult not to do a comparison. I am not looking for a substitute neither. I just want to forget him by finding a person who can interest me and keep my interest there. Quick let me meet a guy better than him before I sink into a state of depression.

Sneaked myself out on Saturday night down to Dbl-O. Dancing all the way since 11 plus till 4. I did not go down to the crowded dance floor. Too stuffy and hot. That's the only thing I don't like about Dbl-O. Unbearably HOT. I was dancing at a more cooling corner near the bar counter where all the sofas were. Found a well-ventilated spot just right under the air-con beside where our sofa was. Parked myself there through out the night without bugging. Except for those occasional times when I bent to get my drink. And Peng and his friends ordered so many many alcohol until those jugs and buckets filled up the whole coffret table. And I wonder how his friend can fell asleep sitting on the red sofa for an hour until the bouncer came and blew a whistle into his ear cheekily. Is the sofa really that comfortable? I don't know coz I did not sit on it as I was busy dancing. Haha.

And a guy came up to me, gave me a compliment before he went off. Made me so happy that I flew up to Cloud No.9 immediately. *laughs* He passed a remark to me saying that I am a good dancer. *embarrassed smile* But of course it got to depend on his own definition of "good dancer" There is no definite meaning in concepts and the meaning only exists in the mind of its creator. I belong more to the interpretivist. Do I sound chim? That's what too much sociology is doing to me. Nonetheless I was still very pleased about the compliment passed. Lalala...

Everyone has got a long weekend. But poor me still did not know that it was a public holiday on Monday until Hwee told me about it on Friday. I was like duhz... I got a paper on Monday lor... I guess I have been too lost in studying that I have already lost track with what's going on around me. But I will be out soon... Next Tuesday... One more week...

Don't know what happen to my 5-year old computer. Logged on to the net this afternoon and suddenly found all the words become so big. Maybe my com know I am getting old that's why considerate enough to auto change the font size... Blah blah whatever...

Heard one interesting story over Class 95fm to share. I think it is a true event.
A man met with an accident and was told by his doctor that he must have one of his leg amputated because the leg grew numb and was turning black in colour. The man so devastated and went home. Now for a period of time while he was at home, his Jack Russell named Milo licked his leg for 4 hours a day. After that period, he felt better and he could feel some sensation on his leg. He went for his medical appointment after some weeks. To his surprise, the doctor actually told him that the condition of his leg had shown great improvement and he need not have to have his leg amputated. He can now walk as normal. The medical explanation provided by the doctor was that the constant prolonged licking by his dog could have stimulated the oxygen circulation in his leg. Well, his dog saved his leg at the end of the day.

It just seems so delightful to hear stories like this especially for those dog lovers like me. Now come to think of it, whenever I had wounds or cuts, Elmo always rush to lick them. No matter how hard I pushed him away (coz the feeling of having something licking you is irritating), he still insisted coming back. It makes me wonder now, he did that because he is kaypo? Or he wanted to heal me? Whatever the reason is, I still love him as much.

Went swimming this afternoon. Tell you ar... The weather is really playing a fool out of me. the moment I stepped out of my lift I discovered that it started to drizzle. So I went up grumbling to my mum. 5 minutes later, the drizzle stopped and I took a 15 minute walk to the pool. The weather was so sunny and bright. Perfect for tanning. When I reached there, I discovered in dismay that the competition pool was reserved for Northland Primary's annual swimming competition. I was like $#^%(^9!!!. But I still went in, thinking I can swim in the teaching pool(the medium one) but I can't do any tanning coz all those beach chairs were by the competition pool.

The moment i dipped into the pool, it started to rain. Not very heavy but it still rained. And the sun was nowhere in sight. I was still happily thinking earlier on that even if I didn't manage to lie on the chair tanning I could do so in the water. Even this small little wish was ruined. Damn! Looks like its fated I can't be an "orr gui" (black turtle) like what my mum describes. Haha. I fought hard with myself to swim 6 laps. Telling myself I must swim harder to burn off those unsightly fats.

However...
My insatiable appetite is causing me much damage!!! I just can't stop myself from getting hungry and it just so difficult controlling myself not to eat. Just imagine, I had my dinner 7 plus at Delifrance just now but by 10pm I was already hungry. By 11 plus, I cannot tahan already and asked my mum to heat up all the food and I ate a plate of rice together with all the dishes. Look! There goes my effort on burning off all the excess fats. I am going swimming again in the morning. But it looks like I won't get any results if I don't stop my excessive eating. Haiz...

OMG!!! I just saw a flying cockroach!!! The insect I feared most. Or rather I am afraid of most six-legged creatures. So I ran to my macho brother telling him of the flying cockroach in hope that he would do something for me.

Guess what he did.

He shouted: Pa!!! Got cockroach!!!
He woke up my sleeping dad, notifying him of the cockroach. So my dad, like a brave and courageous warrior, instructed my actually-not-so macho brother to get him a plastic bag. My brother did as told and my dad asked me where our dreadful enemy was hiding. I informed my warrior that the enemy was behind the curtains. By that time my sis who was resting on the sofa got awoken up by the commotion and joined my brother and I, getting all ready to run if the cockroach flies.

My dad shook the curtains hard and the cockroach flew out of its hideout. I was standing behind my brother grabbing hard on his arm and making lotsa eeks whoo and ahhh noises once the cockroach started to fly. My dad simply asked me to shut up. It took the warrior three tries to "kaup" the cockroach into the plastic bag, tied it up and threw the bag into the rubbish bin. We were standing aside like 3 little chicks under the protection of the brave warror through out the whole process.

The cockroach got caught. Its fate was to get suffocated in that tiny plastic bag. End of commotion. Cheers for my dad for winning against that annoying cockroach.

Oh it just dawned upon me that my birthday is less than two weeks time. It is my first birthday I am celebrating as a single status ever since my secondary school days. It just feels so wierd not having a boyfriend around to celebrate your birthday. I am not used to it. Perhaps there will be no celerations at all. No prezzies, no cakie... Boo hoo hoo. I really don't know how to celebrate it. No plans, no ideas, nobody. It is just so pathetic. It is gonna be a boring birthday for me this year.

I almost made it to the headlines on the newspaper. I almost did. What a relief that I didn't manage to. Was walking along a pavement with Siew Hwee on Monday. We passed by Ritz-Carlton and there was a Mercedes trying to turn out from the exit of the hotel into the main road along Esplande( forgot the road name). There, the driver and the passenger pulled the vehicle to a halt and were busily trying to watch out for the cars coming from their left so that they can turn into the main road and did not notice us trying to pass by them in front of their car. Once the traffic was cleared the driver just stepped on the gear so hard that the car knocked me who was just nice trying to cross the small road. It was quite an impact. I flew. By a few inches onto the main road. Then an on coming car honked at me and I quickly jumped to the side. At least the driver apologised and asked about my situation. I was fine. Just a little traumatised. If he stepped on a little harder, if the on coming car was a little nearer, if the on coming car drove at a faster speed, if the on coming car's driver was a big kuku, I won't be here typing all these nonsense.

And there I was complaining to Hwee 15 mins prior to that accident that if a person is fated to die, it is fated. So if I am destined to die, just let me die. Wow didn't know my foul mouth was so accurate. Ok I take back my word. I still don't wanna die yet. I have still not totally recovered from the shivers of that accident, thinking about it just makes me feel so lucky to be still alive.

We went to sit by Singapore river. It was mosquito infested there. Wonder why my frineds all like bringing me to mosquito infested places. Wonder why those idiotic mosquitoes like to sting my legs, especially my feet. My legs have not yet recovered from the scars of previous incidents. I got lotsa stungs from West Coast and Yishun void deck which was under upgrading. Now my legs look so moh bing. They never look so unpresentable before. And I wonder why all those bites look so poisonous and reddish that they seem to take a long time to recover. Grrrr.... Now there are new additions even before the old ones get healed and disappeared. Hate to look at my feet now.

Oh oh I just came back from my usual Mambo-ing. Geez... Haven had such a fun night of mambo-ing for some time. I went with Hwee. My favourite Mambo kaki. Dunno why. Maybe I am not adaptable. Maybe I am too in love with Hwee. Haha but it seems like I will enjoy myself to the max if I club with her. Just the two of us. I really dunno why. Its just the feeling. It is not even that fun if we go in a group. She also had that kind of concept. It is not that I don't enjoy myself if I go with some other of my friends... I still do. But its most fun going with Hwee. Ok I admit I am in love with her... Oopsss...

My life seems to be just revolving aound her. Same thing for her. Haha. Looks like our social circle is getting smaller and smaller. Dunno why. It is not that we are anti-social. Basically we are very friendly and nice girls... Just don't step on our toes and make us scream. I don't want to be an old spinster growing old together with her you know. I want the both of us to be happily married off you know. But apparently its going nowhere. Haiz...

Ok it is already 5 plus. I still got to wake up early for my swim before i start a day of revising my Macro. Yeah I finally kick off my daily swimming plan. Have been talking about it for some time without any action. At last there is and I am going to maintain the streak. I made up my mind to swim everyday. Reason? So that I can slim down and get tan at the same time.. I have gained 2kgs ever since my too-good-to-be insatiable appetite started. And it doesn't seem to have any signs of toning down. So I better do something before my weight hit a 5 for the first number. I will scream if that happens.

Gambling luck has been on my side these few weeks. Have been winning money consecutively for the past two sessions of mahjong. Something that seldom happens. Well, this left me pondering. Is it because of my luck? Or my skills of mahjong have indeed improved? Or is it a combination of both?

Chinese got a saying: "Qing chang shi yi, Du chang de yi"
Means when one is down in love, he/she will usually have a bleam on the gambling table.
Guess that is applicable to me.

A mahjong guru transferred some of his mahjong tactics to me a few weeks back. He was always talking about mahjong. Mahjong is part of the routine in his life. Ways to win, what to do when lady luck is not on your side, how to see what tiles your opponent is waiting for and what methods to minimise losses when you are not on a winning streak. He tried teaching and enlightening me through his magnificent experience. Though I don't understand all of them and able to absorb 100% of them into my brain for future usage, I was still able to get the hang of it and apply the knowledge gained when practical time comes. And it looks so far so good.

My Sociology paper buang-ed again today. There is a 90% probability that I will fail this damn module. And the thought of taking it all over again the next sem just make me so annoyed. I admit that I only spent 3 days studying this module but the main thing is I can't seem to recall back whatever I have studied. I swear to God that I really put all my heart and soul revising the module. But after days of hardwork I asked myself what have I studied so far and my mind just went into blank. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I was so damn stressed up yesterday that I cried and had the thought of not going for the paper. But I had already paid $400 over for it(or rather my dad paid for it) so I will go and waste my 3 hour there no matter what. Throughout that whole 3 hour I just sat there and squeezed my brain juice to max just to write down stuff that I think was rather irrelvant to the question posed. I hate to write essay questions. Especially sociology essay questions. This makes me think how I used to write some 3 page long essays for my Literature 'O' level exam 6 years ago. Perhaps Lit is more interesting than Soci. At least there is a story plot to guide you along. Perhaps my brain no longer function how it used to be. I don't know lar... No point crying over spilled milk. I have already done all I could. The worst thing was I didn't start my revision for this topic early. This module requires alot of reading and understanding. I had been lazing around for the past 8 months. This brought about my down fall and probable failing of this module. I really don't wish to retake this module again. I simply hate it to the core. Hope that a miracle can happen and make me pass this module. I don't need high marks. Just a 34 to make me pass... Will miracle happen to me?

This exam period is so stressed up. I am now living in agony and torment of the exams. How I wish I can be released from the clutches of this demon. How I envy my friends who had already finished their exams. When is my turn? I still got 2 more weeks of suffering in hell. I really hope that I can endure. If not, don't be surprised if you see me trying to kill myself. Woah... I never thought that I will kill myself over exams. But I am just so this damn fucking stressed. My next paper is Macroecons. And I have got high expectations from it not only because this is what I am majoring in but also that this is the module I am strongest in. I can't afford to have anything going wrong with this paper. I have got a full week to revise on this. I am not going to make history repeat itself. I am going to relax myself just for today and full force out to study Macro tomorrow. God please help me tide over this period...

Yeah just came back from my first paper. Got my ass down to Expo early this morning at 9am. I am so sleepy now. Going to get myself a good nap to replenish my energy level so that I have got the strength for a mahjong session tonight. *hehe* Oh I am having another paper on Monday. Have not study much yet. But I am gonna go mahjong anyway. Given up hope on that module. Ya its that stupid Sociology.

How was my Accounting paper this morning? One word to describe it.

BUANG-ED.

Able to pass but... not able to score well. I just anyhow scribbled some logical answers down for most of the questions. Oh my passing mark is only 34. Should be a relief for me. This is the very first time I studied so little and so unprepared for my exams. Sigh... And looks like I still have not learn my lesson. Still got the courage to go mahjong. I also don't know what I am doing with my life. No motivation at all.

The most important person in my life, apart from my parents, took her Advanced theory this morning. Wonder how she fared. Given her smart sense and capability, I am confident that she can make it one lar. Woo hoo another princess' potential fetcher to be. Looks like people around me are all getting car license. Me? Still idling around and claiming that I will get it soon.

People have been asking me the same questions recently. The sequence goes like this:
Friend: Eh you got a car license?
Rachel: No...
Friend: Don't plan to go for one?
Rachel: Ya soon...
Friend: Why waiting for people to fetch you so no need drive is it...
Rachel: ...................

Actually I never thought of that. I mean waiting for people to fetch me. I am just plain lazy to go and take a car license. I hate the procedure. So troublesome and time consuming. And I know I am not those one-time-pass kind of smart ass, given my inborne blurness and clumsiness. However, it will be good long term wise if I manage to get it now. At least I won't have to learn all those stupid practicals when I need to spend most of my time at work right? I mean since I am so free now while studying, might as well go and learn. Can help to kill my time too. I have planned to learn it after my this coming exams... I don't wanna procrastinate anymore. It's doing me no good. And the fees are accelerating. Better learn it now before it gets more expensive a few years down the road.

Oh oh talking about driving and being on the road. I simply just can't stand people who got zero sense of direction. Imagine going to the same place taking the same route for umpteen times (about 5 or 6 times), but still can't manage to recognise the road and know which junction to make a turning. No, having to watch out for traffic and blind spots is not an excuse. Perhaps acceptable for a first time. But after so many many times... U should already know where to turn while being able to watch out for cars right? Don't tell me the traffic is always so heavy that u don't know where to turn. Unable to turn in time and not knowing is a got to turn junction are two separate issues.

And I can't be always directing where to go where to turn at all times. If I know you have gone to that place so many times together with me before, of course I will assume that you will remember and know the route there. It really pissed me off to know that people missed the turning because they did not know the way after going to the same place so many times. Having to asked is it the way to turn at this coming junction also makes me frustrated. I mean wah lau you should know right... Cant you recognise the route? For me, I will usually know the way after I went to the place once. I will know which exit to go and after that which direction to turn. Perhaps I have got a good memory for directions, perhaps I am smart. Wahaha. Ok I know you people are going to say that I don't have to watch out for traffic just sit there and relax of course it is easier for me to get myself familiarise with the routes. However like I said, its like after umpteen countless times but the person still can't recognise the route.

Two words to describe this.

PURE STUPIDITY.

Got a very very deep cut on my foot. It is so painful and irritating. Thanks to the ungentleman-ly fucked up guy who only knows how to act blur. Not even a word of sorry or feeling embarrassed for the cut you bestowed me. I was dancing on one of the step at Zouk yesterday. A stupid guy a step higher than me leaned forward to talk to his also very irritating friend a step below me. He accidentally toppled all the glasses that were placed at the side of the step. So clumsy. And one of the glasses was already broken. So when the glass toppled, it cut the poor princess who was juz standing beside it. It was bleeding non-stop. The person who caused it saw what happen. But he just act blur. Not a word of sorry, let alone getting me some tissues to stop the bleeding. So my poor friend Peng got to go to the bar counter for some serviettes. I thought it was not a very deep cut cause I didn't really feel any pain at that point in time. I repeat. At that point in time only. So I keep wiping off the blood but it just keep gushing out like nobody's business. The stupid man above me saw the whole thing. But he continued to act blur. Fuck!!!

Now the cut is sooooooo painful and one clear look at it shows that it was a pretty bad and deep cut. Hate the man to the core. Not because he accidentally cut me, but his attitude of being so ungentleman and impolite.

I think good guys do not exist in the world. They have extinct. Just like Dodo birds. Left stranded on the streets are men I have just encountered. Even if there are good men around, they have all been "chopped" by girls who have better qualities than me...

When can I ever find a guy who is good looking, caring, thoughtful, considerate, sweet and gentle? Oh and best of all quite rich. But that is besides the main point. Haha I must be dreaming. Even if there is, they most likely won't be interested in me..

I have found a guy who is so close possessing my above-mentioned qualities. But perhaps he is a jerk. I refuse to get that idea into my brain. And I just miss him so terribly. Things never got started out. Perhaps there should not even be a starting point in the first place. Perhaps I should not let myself fall for him in the first place. Now i just can't get him out of my mind. Miss him. Just miss him so much that it is affecting my life. How I wish I can turn back time..

I am so sick!!! Not only physically kind of sick but mentally as well! Frustrated kind of sick.

I am so sick of the weather.
When it is warm it is so blood damn humid. Started sweating the moment you stepped out of the bathroom after a bath. When it is cold, it can rain for the whole day, especially when I need to go out of my house.

I am so sick of my exams.
I am going to nag about it again. I have not got much time to study and time just slip through my fingers.

I am so sick of sociology.
Revised this stupid module today. The module I hate most. God damn Emile Durkheim, Karl Marx and Max Weber. To people who dunno them, they are sociologists. Yeah I gotta study all those big noble theories and ideas they had come up with. Why do these people think so much in the olden days and make descendents like me down here suffering for their noble contributions? Furthermore it always seems like you can't recall back whatever you read. The feeling is so irritating.

I am so sick of the parents of my tuition students.
Bugging me and calling me everyday asking when I will be going down assist their precious child to revise for their exams. And they sort of expect that I will be going down. WTF! Told them I am having my exams this week already. Can't they be just a little bit more considerate and selfishless? And ma chiam the one and a half hour of my presence will make a big difference to their child's results lor. To them its only a one and a half hour. But to me, all those travelling costs time too don't they? I will have to forgo 2+ hours of my time for each lesson to go and teach them you know? It is not about the money issue here. I am willing to stop earning those fees to exchange more time for my revision. And I am not being irresponsible or whatever. I already told them I will be going down but just let me plan my time first. But they just keep bugging me. It is their attitude and expectation that pissed me off you understand? And come on, its only their mid-year exams. But for me it is my final year exams leh. If I fail, that's it. I got to stay for another more year in school. And no, I am not letting it happen.

I am so sick of my insatiable appetite.
Just keep going hungry and keep thinking about eating. Worse thing is I am having a sore throat. Feel the pain towards anything that goes down my throat. But I got no choice but to endure the pain and fill my stomach. I really wonder if there are worms inside my stomach but hey if there are, my tummy will not be bloating now cause of all the food and fats stored within it.

I am so sick of having insomnia.
Yes it is coming back. Starting to have sleepless nights again. I thought I was cured. But no! To make things worse, it is not because I spent the time studying. If it is, at least the time wasted for not sleeping is being put to good use. Sad to say, I wasted my precious time tossing on the bed trying hard to fall asleep.

Ok enough of complaining and venting of my frustrations here. I am going to study what the great superb Emile Durkheim has in store for me already. So sick of it.

Yeap a major revamp to my blog. I just discovered something so out-of-surprise and fantastic. There is something called blogskin and all you have to do is to copy and paste the html codings. Haha ok I know I am sua ku but at least I got the hang of it mah... Looks like I am still doing fine with that and I am not that dumb huh... If you noticed the basic colour is the pink. Ya I just simply love pink so much, especially the hot bright kind of pink.

People, I am sick. Having a very bad sore throat, cough and flu. Guess I am too heaty. All the credits go to those late night supper I have had recently. Nasi lemak, Fried prawn flour cakes blah blah... Oh the most fatal one was the herbal chicken feet I had last Thursday. The herbal smell was sooooo strong and I predict the chicken feets must have been marinated with tons of chinese herbs for a very long time. Ever since, every morning when I wake up I will lose my voice temporary. Only able to regain it after I wash up and had a glass of water. Therefore I am unable to answer any phonecalls when I am still on bed. Don't dare to let people hear my sexy coarse voice lar. This is what will happen to me whenever I get too heaty. Time to recovery? About 3 weeks. Damn... And the feeling sucks. Anybody taking pity on me? Please do...

I think it is a trend to fall sick during exam period. That was what happened to Jing Fen when she had her exams. Too stressed? Perhaps. Or am I just trying to find some excuses for myself to cover up my greediness? *winkz* By the way, not only I am sick, I am also getting FAT. Yes FAT. This is not a good sign. I must stop myself from gorging those sinful stuff and have a control over my recently-too -good-appetite. So stop asking me out for supper!!! I am unable to resist the tempation. *Awww*

Revision has not been on a smooth track these few days. Too much distractions and temptations around. This is what happens when all the friends around you are either not studying or have already finished their exams. People around me are all bad company. Hahaha. Asking me for mahjong, Dbl-o, talking cock session, shopping trips blah blah (everything except studying) when they jolly well know that I am supposed to be preparing for my exams. Ok I am pushing all the blames to my friends when I am not self-disciplined enough... But... Hey... If they did not asked I would have been studying right?

It is three days down to my first paper. And I still have not sense any bit of urgency in me. I think I am really doomed this time. Still slacking around wasting my time when time is already running out. Shit. And all I do is to keep saying I am dead this time instead of grasping every bit of time on the revision. See now I still got the time to search skin for my blog and doing these unimportant stuffs.I really pity my dad sometimes for spending so much money on such a rascal like me. Hehe. I must really try hard to study later after wake up. No time to lose.

I am gonna keep my entry this short. For one simple reason. I am having a stupid lecture later at 9am!!! Which I almost forgot till I flipped my organiser a few hours ago.That means i gotta wake up at 7am... Thinking about that long journey to school just turns me off... It is a one hour and fifteen minutes journey mind you people... Grrr... And I am still here blogging away instead of sleeping.

Oh it was such a happening Mambo night yesterday... Got Siew Hwee, Jing Fen, Joseph, Allan and Kar Hwee and his bunch of cranky campmates... Oh and Allan's friend of whom I forgot the name again, which I didn't asked for or introduced to in the first place. Until I asked Allan about his friend's name when I was on the phone with him just now. But er... Apparently the name slipped off my mind again. Haha. Or is it because I didn't even bother to remember... *sheepish grin* My memory does not have space for unimportant stuff... Hahaha... Zouk was damn packed but nonetheless still fun and the packed crowd did not really ruined my dancing mood. But another thing did somehow or rather dampened my sprit... But well, I am not gonna talk about it though... Haha.

I think I am really damn suay these few days lor. It was well known that Singapore had such hot and humid weather for the past few days. But I wonder why for the continuous two days it rained 5 minutes just before i stepped out of my door. I got no choice but to bring an umbrella out. That was not the worst. The worst thing was the walk from my house to the MRT station, getting all my pants and bag wet and trying very hard not to step on puddles of water while squeezing myself sheltered within that tiny umbrella. And to add on to my dismay and du lan-ness, I discovered that only Yishun rained. WTF!!!

As said, I went to the temple. Got myself two very very very bad lots... Sianz... This only confirmed that I am on the down part of my life. Studies and relationships are not going fine for me. These were the two issues I asked. Furthermore the lots told me that I will not be doing well in everything. Yes I mean everything. Family, career, relationships, health, blah blah blah... But my family seems fine now. No signs of disagreement with family. *keeping fingers crossed*

Ok I am gonna go to dreamland. Only left with four hours plus of sleep. Pray hard that I got the energy to drag myself out of my comfy bed later. If not... Haha think you people will know the consequences...