My super serious blu black on my butt!!! Very enormous right?!

The not so serious one on my small thigh...

The blue black on my hand due to the stupid fall... Sorry for the blur pics though... Hehe

Thanks for all the concern showered regarding my butt. Never knew that there are so many people concern about my butt... *laughs loudly* Thanks for all concern received via sms-es and msn. The terrible blu balck has subsided. But still very painful. Guess my mum never rub it all out hard enough. But all the effort was enough to send me groaning and crying.

Me! All set ready to go Dbl-o. Don't know why I feel like I look so old in this pic. But hey my face don't look round. So I like! Haha. 

Woke up today with my mum shaking me forcing me to leave my dreamland. Was asked to accompany her to buy Toto. It wasn't as easy task as u thought. Cause my mum doesn't want to bet her luck on the Toto bought from the outlet a street down our house. She claimed that the outlet was an "au-sai-der", which in her context she meant lousy. When she didn't manage to strike any 4D or Toto for quite a period of time, she will blame it on that outlet saying that buying from the outlet will not get her any winnings.

Therefore, she liked to try her luck at Chong Pang 7-11. Which is known to be the hottest outlet for 4D or Toto cause it always let people win the first prize. Though it was more troublesome that did not stop my mum from going all the way there to pin some of her hope. Lucky thing is I don't stay Jurong or Pasir Ris. Chong Pang is just a feeder bus trip away.

To make things worst, my parents went Chong Pang last week and bought some Toto from that particular 7-11. And both of them won some small money. That further confirmed my mum's funny concept and made her more firmed in her decision of buying from that 7-11.

So, poor me was dragged out of my bed and accompanied her to Chong Pang. Since I was already there, I might as well try my luck. Perhaps I am the sole winner of the 5 million leh? *still dreaming*

Bad luck this time, my mum didn't even got 4 numbers. And she was so upset. Me too. But I don't have any luck in 4D or Toto lar. Perhaps because I seldom buy this kind of stuff. The number of times I buy 4D or Toto can be counted within 10 fingers. *laughs*

Envy the two lucky persons for the first prize in the 5 million Toto jackpot. When will it ever be my turn?

It was supposed to be a happy Saturday night. I repeat. Supposed. My night was totally wrecked by a man who did not know how to think properly under the effect of alcohol. That was the worst Dbl-o trip I had.

He was not drunk. He still knew what he was doing. Perhaps those alcohol made him do hysterical things.

I was being falsely accused of flirting around.
I was being falsely accused of having an interest on one of his friend.

He claimed that I can still enjoyed myself even though he was already not happy with me.
He claimed that I was over-friendly with all of the guys.

But wait.
He is not my boyfriend.
WTF!!!

I mean, I did none of the above-mentioned.
But even if I did, I repeat. Even if. He does not need or does not have the right to make such a big fuss!!!

He made such a big hoo-haa at Dbl-o that it ruined everyone's mood I think.

I was already damn pissed off with him for those false accusations and getting so angry for I am not even his girl friend. Yet on the other hand in order to salvage the situation I still have to coax him and trying to find out what happen.

The whole world came after me asking me what happened when I myself don't even know what has gotten into his mind.

I broke down several times cause I was feeling so helpless and innocent and pissed off. Luckily Charmaine was there to offer immediate tissues and hugs everytime I needed them. Thanks so much girl.

Thanks for everyone who was there's concern and console. I appreciate it. But I am so sorry to have ruined your night. I know everyone was more or less affected. Such things shouldn't have happened.

This was not the first time such things happened at Dbl-o but it was by far the worst. Things between me and him have already calmed down but it replicates every week. After simmering down he will apologise for his actions but what's the use when it comes again? I don't blame him for doing all these nonsense but I just want to resolve everything so that things won't repeat themselves. Everytime I called or smsed to ask if he was ok he said he was. But in the end?

We can talk and joke normally as friends now. But everything changed once he gets his emotions over his rationality.

I am so tired of all these. So tired. Why can't I have the abilty to resolve all these? Can I put a stop to all these without the expense of our friendship?

Guess I am getting abit lazy lately... Not much of blogging... Well... nothing much to jot down actually.

Went for mahjong yesterday night at hui's house. It's becoming a routine for me. Wednesdays are for Dbl-o followed by Zouk, Fridays are set aside for mahjong and Saturdays are reserved for Dbl-o. Mondays are to stay home and be good girl, Tuesday are usually for meet ups with girl friends, Thursdays are to meet up with whoever available and Sundays are either spent slacking at home or squash with my girls. I wonder if it's a good sign getting my life so sychronised.

Oh ya! Went shopping with Hui on Thursday and opps I splurged a little upon getting my tuitions fees. Bought myself a black shorts at my favourite m)phosis and a pair of black heels from VNC. The shorts is abit pricey. $40+ but I like and Hui said I look slim in it. *laughs* There goes almost half of my tuition fees from one shopping trip. Actually didn't plan to get anything in the first place. Just thought that it's time to get myself a nice black heels coz erm... my usual heels are gonna wear off soon.

On my way back from mahjong yesterday (or rather it's today morning) , just when I was about to take the lift up to my house, I slipped and fell from the flight of stairs.
Procedure:
1. The rain just stopped and stairs were wet. Friction reduced.
2. Stupid me was already half asleep and didn't take extra precaution when going down the stairs.
3. Slippers are already quite worn off. Friction was further reduced.
4. First step, ok.
5. Second step, miss cue and slipped to the 3rd step.
6. Left slipper flew out and landed on the ground.
7. By that time, I had already fallen, landed on my butt, and used my left hand to press against the steps.
8. Due to pull of gravity and lessened of friction, the impact was not strong enough to stop the slip.
9.Therefore, I further slipped from the 3rd step till the very last step of the stairs, on my butt.
10. Took myself 10 seconds to recover from the excruciate pain and struggled to pull myself up and limped to the lift.

Results:
1. Woke up with extreme pain on the left side of my butt.
2. Can't sit with ease even when the seat is cushioned.
3. Had a serious blue black on my butt and slight pain on my left palm.
4. Asked my mum to roll my painful butt.
5. Now I got a blue black with the shape in a straight line (coz hit against the so many edges of the steps)
6. Unbearable pain. (I think it will be worse tomorrow)

That's the worst fall I ever had in my 22 years. I am just so clumsy. Ouch Ouch Ouch... I wonder if I can still go Dbl-o later... Damn.

Went for a movie on Sunday with Alan. Fantastic Four. Quite a nice movie to recommend. Perhaps I had expected to much from the movie and it didn't turn out to be what I expected. But it was still good though. Most of the plot was dedicated to the part where how the four became the Fantastic Four armed with super power. At first I thought the main story will be on how they put up a fight with the villian. I guess I have watched too much Spiderman. *laughs* Based on my experience, I think they will become coming up with Fantastic Four II. The villain won't be so easily defeated lar...

Waiting for The Chocolate Factory to be out. In August. I think it will be very nice. Seen the thriller already. I think the plot, cast and animation effects are all good.

Life these few days has been monotonous. Going straight back home after my tuitions. Good girl hor? *bleah* Know why? I am super broke. Don't wish to go out and spend money. Even if I don't go shopping, I will still spend money on eating. That's why I choose to stay home for my mum's cooking. Good food with great taste. Most importantly, it's FOC. *laughs*

Despite forbidding myself from shopping and buying things, bank is still running low. I try to think back and find out why. God most of my money have gone to clubbing. $10 cabfare on Wednesday and $20 cabfare on Saturday. Peng has been paying for my cover to Dbl-o on Sat. If I were to pay myself, it will add up to be $35. Sigh... But I just can't stop myself from clubbing. Especially when retro comes into the picture. But one thing to be relieved is that I don't have to pay for the drinks. *grins*

Oh oh my dieting plan is going to collapse and declare failure soon. Nights are long and I can't stand the growling of my stomach anymore. Have been eating late at night for the past 2 days. Opps... Can somebody just slap me? Everytime I finished the meal I will be so guilty-stricken. Like pouring all my past efforts into the drain. But when the urge comes... Well...

Good thing is, I have lost a kilogram. But no effects on the surface. My tummy is still as bulging, my arms and thighs are still as flabby, my face is still as round. 2 more kgs to be shed off. I will restrain myself. Please slap me if you catch me supper-ing ok?

Going Mambo later. Hee hee...

I don't know what I am doing with my life. At this point in time, everything is going nowhere. It is simply goal-less, no direction, aimless.

And it is chaotic I tell you.

Everything is so messy and it seems like I have certain control over such situations. But I am just letting things happen and at times making things worse even though I know it may lead to something bad. I don't know why. I am very clear about how things are going and I am not going to make it better. But I still hope I can save the friendship. Things are bad now and I think it's gonna be worse.

Whatever it is, I am enjoying my single life.

Oh ya I suddenly remembered something that inspired me to blog today. Remember I was saying I rushed home from Sembawang park on Saturday night? I dropped off at Sembawang Shopping Centre to hitch a free ride from them which would land me just at my block. Being a well-regulated Singaporean, I queued up while waiting for the bus which arrives at an half an hour interval.

Within minutes, the queue got longer and a number of people queued up behind me, mostly families carrying bags full of groceries with the label Giant imprinted on them. A toddler was ranting away making dissatisfied whines. I think most probably he did not want to home. As usual lar... I was like that when I was young too *laughs*

What made me filled with thoughts was the words made by his mother. this was what the mum said.
"Ok ok tomorrow I BRING YOU COME ok? Then I let you play MANY TIMES ok?"

Bring you Come???!!! What kind of English is this? A direct translation from Chinese?
Let you play many times???!!! How to let him play many times? I mean how do u define what is one time? To round around once is one time? Or what?

In English, there is no such thing as "bring you come" right? And play should be measured by duration instead of the number of times right?

My point is, at such a tender age of 2 or 3, kids have a strong learning power and always mimic people close to them and in many cases is their mum. They can't tell what is wrong or right. To them, mum is always right. If parents can't speak proper English to them, they will grow up in an environment of wrong usage in the command of English. As they grow older, this type of flaw will be difficult to abolish.

Nowdays it's becoming a trend for parents to communicate with their children in English because English is deemed as a more useful language and parents want their children to get familiarised with this language. But that is provided parents can speak good English. If not, it will be doing them more harm. If parents can't speak good English, then just stick to Chinese. Why make your life difficult by trying so hard to speak a language you are not good at, and making so many mistakes, and letting your child infected with all these mistakes?

That's another reason why government comes up with so many campaigns. Bringing the idea of telling Singaporeans to speak good English and not to lose the ability of using Mandarin.

I am not against the idea of Singlish. Well, Singlish is a unique feature of Singaporeans. Almost everyone speaks Singlish. I do that more often than not. All those lar leh lor har stuff and mixing Chinese and English sometimes even Malay and Hokkien in one sentence. Everyone is so used to all these. But... "Bring you come" is not definately not Singlish ya? It is a direct translation from Chinese. And I think it's bad. Very bad.

Oh by the way, I think the right way of saying the same thing should be
"Ok ok I shall bring you here again tomorrow ok? Then you can play for a longer time ok?"

Went to the new club Momo on Saturday night after Keavy's bbq party at Sembawang Beach. Pretty amazed with myself with the fast pace of getting ready to club. Reached home at 10.30pm after the bbq and by 10.50pm, I was already panting my way to the MRT station. 20 minutes to bathe, choose the outfit to wear, changed and doll up. Fast huh? *winks*

Stubborn by nature, I insisted walking to Momo instead of taking a cab though I didn't know the way there from Clark Quay MRT. Coz I only know how to walk there from Mohd Sultan. Therefore, 20 minutes was spent trying to figure out the locality map at the MRT station and deciphering which exit should I go and which direction was I facing. Finally I caught hold of the route. Luckily clever me is good at looking at maps. *laughs*

Aiyo... the queue there was bloody long... but it was moving fast and the club was very packed. Guess people are trying it out because it's new. My comments? It is a Chinablack duplicate. I will say that the interior design is pretty well done. However, I don't like Chinablack, which means that I don't like Momo as well. Oh, I think the DJs are from CB. Perhaps that explain the feel of duplication. Hiya... whatever it is, I did not enjoy myself last night. No Dbl o = Sad Rachel

Oh ya by the way, my son is also called Momo(usually we call him by this name). Haha but he is a monster. And I keep on joking that he is the boss of the club. Lame I know. Lalala...

Read Lawrence's bloggie and had some comments. Let me correct some misconceptions that people always have in mind. First, it is not SIM who decides how many modules students will take. Students follow the structure of the university. This means that RMIT students and UOL students have different study structure. Likewise for other uni like Monash or whatever uni which offer external study in Singapore.

Second, I know alot of people think that UOL is easy. But let me tell you now it is not easy at all. Yes under UOL, you only need to study 12 modules under a 3 year course. Unlike other Unis (esp those Australia Unis) where you have to complete the degree by clearing 24 modules. Now, the difference is that for UOL, students, we have to study 4 modules per year and exams are held once a year. For others, students study 8 modules per year and these 8 modules are divided into 4 semesters which is like having to study only 2 modules per 3 months.

On the surface, it might seems like UOL is easier to study because of the lesser modules required. And it might not be as comprehensive. How can students just obtain a degree by studying 12 modules? Too easy right? But think about it carefully. For UOL, you have to study 1 module for almost one whole year ( 8 months of lecture, 2 months of revision). For other Unis, you have to study 1 module for 2 and a half months ( 2 months of lecture, maybe 2 weeks for revision). Now which one is more comprehensive and taxing?

Having to study modules for 2 months plus and then exams. The rate is even faster than polytechnics in which exams are scheduled every 6 months. I mean, how much can you cover within 2 months plus? Very limited I would say. And it will mean that exam coverage is very narrow. Though exams are held every 3 months.

In my opinion, yes u may study alot of modules but each module coverage is not in-depth and from my point of view, if you are specialised in a certain area eg. Marketing or Econs and Finance, it is better to study less but in-depth modules rather than wide variety of modules with surfacial knowledge. Unless you are going for degree titles like Biz Admin where you are not only specialised in one field.

And rest assure that having an exam a year is not easy. One exam paper determines your fate. If you fail, good luck. You will have to repeat that bloody module for another year. There is totally no assignments or projects or tests that carry any weightage. It is 100% examination based. And with the in-depth coverage, there are so many topics that can be tested and it is difficult to spot questions. You have to study everything. Everything taught for the past year. Therefore, lots of preparation work and revision have to be done. Revision time is about 2 months plus. Exactly the same time as what other Unis have to clear one module. You get what I am trying to say?

So don't ever carry that idea that UOL's degree is so easy to get and UOL students are leading a good life. I don't mean to be offensive and too defensive on my part. I am just stating my thoughts. I mean... I know students from other universities ain't having an easy life either. Having to take exams every 3 months is tiring. But that doesn't mean having exams once a year is easy.

Hope I don't bore you people with all the explanations ya... *laughs* And I am not trying to stress you guys.. Well, I seldom get down with serious stuff in my blog. Opinions and comments are welcome. But please don't shoot me ya? I am not picking up a war. Just my own thoughts.

Just when I thought that I am slowly getting over it. I don't know if I am deceiving myself. But sometimes I really feel that I am getting better. But at certain times, like now, I just feel so terrible. I can still remember those times. Images keep flashing through my mind like a video clip. Why can't I just erase that portion of my life so that I have exactly no clue about what had happened. Why can't I erase the person's existence in my brain? Whatever that was said, whatever that was done, whatever that was said but not done, I remember them all.

Just when I thought I am back on the track again, I realise I can't kick all these out of my mind. No matter how hard I tried to. Yes times are not as bad as before but till when will I succeed?

Another blow came this morning. Peng said NO DBL O tonight. Coz no one is going. And I am freaking upset. I am already upset enough. Why can't I get the chance of doing what I like so as to lift up my spirits? And I wonder why they ain't going. They go there every Saturday. Hmmm...

My entry kind of sucks. No flow. All cut up in parts thrown here and there. U guys know what I am talking about? Never mind, as long as I do.