September 25th marks the 7th year that we become best of friends. I am very fortunate and glad that I have 3 such supportive and enocouraging sisters who guide me through my life. They are always there for me. We share our joy, sorrows, fun and troubles together. Listening ears, shoulders and tissues are always readily there to be offered whenever I need them. Not everyone can be this fortunate. Our friendship has still a long way to go... We grew up together, we see how each other mature and change.

In the near future, we will be seeing each other getting married(provided I can get married off), setting up a family, giving birth to kids. A few years down the road, we will be sitting down at a cafe rattling about our husbands with our kids playing with each other beside us. Such nice thing isn't it?

My 3 nicest sisters are: (according to ranking seniority)(I am the eldest by the way)

Noelle Tan Ying Xiu - Knew her since Sec 1 but we were just hi bye friends then.
Cavis Phua Siew Hwee - Don't even know there was such a person's existence till we were in the same class during Sec 3.
Cheryl Cheong Jing Fen - This girl ar, knew her way back when we were in P5, same class with me all the way from Sec 1 to 4.

One Punggol camp in Sec 3 brought the four of us together and let us become the closest friends. Still remembered that we were at Fen's house eating maggis mee when we decided to set up this so called our own "family". That was dated 25th September 1998.

From then on, every year on this special day, the four of us will make it a point to celebrate with each other, laughing and talking about our past etc etc.

We held our small little celebration every year at different venues. Here there are. In case I lost count of them as years go by. So I better jot them down. *hehe*

1st year - - Sembawang beach
2nd year - - NYP garden
3rd year - - Boat Quay Coffee Bean
4th year - - East Coast Park
5th year - - Cable car dinner ride
6th year - - Fisherman's Village
7th Year - - Sentosa Siloso Beach

We had lotsa fun at Sentosa on Sunday. Fen and me got sunburnt. Dinner was at Sakae Sushi at Sentosa. All of us started to turn cranky after dinner. Took lotsa funny pics. Here they are. Some of them are with Fen, including those while we were suntanning on the beach. Shall upload them again...

The following pics were taken while we were waiting for Elle to finish bathing... So there we were happily snapping photos.

Actually I was afraid that my hair dipped into the soya sauce while I was posing...

After dinner, we were playing around at the beach...

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The sun is so glaring that Elle squirmed her eyes...

Cute right? Haha...

Omg this is so romantic... Like wedding photo hor?

The erm... not so romantic version...

Best friends

Let me kiss also cannot...

Well took me such a long time to upload all these photos. Will upload the rest in afew days time. Left a few of them only actually. Hee... Hope I don't scare you people with my pale w/o make up face...

I just can't imagine how suay I can be. I wanna rant, complain, whine and shout.

1st: My previous blog entry "accidentally" got lost not once, but twice. The system just suddenly logged me out of blogger when I clicked on the Publish Post button. All the entries were lost. This happened twice. Got so frustrated that I didn't bother to retype it for the 3rd time yesterday.

2nd: Sort of had a conflict with him. Which explains my foul mood. I wasn't happy with him due to certain issues. Neither was he. (But things got better yesterday. Phew) I shan't be elaborating the details here though.

3rd: The stupid M1 cut my line. Well I am not saying that they can't cut my line. It is my mistake not paying off the bill. What I am pissed off was the service and policy. I called them up and suggested that I pay off half of the amount and requested if they could reconnect my line. They die die want me to pay the full amount before they can do anything to my line. The customer service officer claimed that they won't be able to help me UNLESS I settle the amount due in full. And stated that it is their policy. To hell with their stupid policies and inflexible rules. Machiam money will just drop from the sky if they cut off my line. No money means I got no money to pay them. Whatever pattern they come up with will not change the fact. Since they don't want half of the payment, fine. Then slowly wait till I got the money to pay them in full. And don't they know that customers hate the phrase : Sorry but this is our company's policy. Didn't they learn customer relations management before? Policies are set by humans isn't it? Whatever... Meanwhile, I shall go get myself a temporary line. Will give the number to those around me after I get the SIM card. If you guys need to contact me, call me at my house number okay? I am gonna terminate the M1 line after the contract expires. Not gonna engaged in any M1 services anymore.

4th: There were changes in my tuition yesterday. My student could not make it for the tuition. But the parent can't get hold of me cause my line was cut off. As a result, I made a wasted trip down to the place.

5th: Lent Hui my camera since she is going for Taiwan. I asked her to format my SD card cause there were alot of unknown files within the card and they are taking up more than 50% of the memory. By getting rid of them she can take more photos. But erm... apparently the camera can't read my card after she formatted it. Lets just hope that my memory card isn't spoilt.

6th: I fell down again on Saturday. Slipped from the stairs. Just like last time. *rolled eyes* Hurt the same side of my butt again. Mylene and Cylene witnessed the whole incident. Laughed at me and claimed that I am the most clumsy person they ever come across. Yes I admit I am a little far too clumsy. But that's me. Maybe I am born like that. *shrugs*

Recently I notice a trend. Seems like everyone around me are getting married, just married, getting ROM, planning to get married.

WTH...

Right. I am being left on the shelf.

Nobody wants me.

Can't even get myself a boyfriend. Let alone getting married.

I can't just pull any Tom, Dick or anyone on the streets to go and sign the papers right?

I am unwanted. I really that bad meh?

I am on Lelong. Anybody wants me? *pouts with tears shimmering in the eyes*

Alright, let's face it. I am bored. Usually at this time of the week I should be happily dancing away at Mambo. No mambo makes me a dull girl...

Instead of dancing, here I am eating a snowskin mooncake from Raffles The Plaza. Not that awwwww... but still taste ok lar. Don't know who bought it. Was a little hungry and I opened up the fridge to look for something to snack. And to my delight I found this. *hehe*

I think I am digging my own grave by constantly eating sweet stuffs at this hour. Oh by the way I just finished a packet of Kinder Bueno.

I wanted so much to go to the Nokia Starlight at Padang actually. I think it's gonna be a nice experience to watch movie under such ambience. But there is no one to go with me... So sad. Most probably my girls who are all attached will be going with their boyfriends. And it is not so nice to go with guy friends. A little erm... too romantic for friends right? And I will feel weird too. HE is most likely too busy to go with me. He is always that busy. Even a simple movie with him have gotta push to next week cause he is fully occupied for this week. He promised to bring me to watch The Longest Yard. With his ever so tight schedule, he definately will not have the time to go Nokia Starlight with me. So, I didn't even ask him. But I really want to go...

However, I will be meeting him for dinner later in the night. Hee hee... Looking forward.

OMG I did so many things today that shouldn't be done at all.

First of all, I am eating a bar of Cadbury Fruit and Nuts Chocolate now. One of my favourite. And it is so yummylicious.

I woke up late for class today. Was supposed to be up by 11.30am but alarm clock failed to wake me up. Having expecting that would happened, I told my personal alarm clock to call me at 11 plus. But suddenly my old damn phone was out of reception. He called me through my house phone but my mum told him I was sleeping. That dumb dumb him just said ok and put down the phone instead of asking my mum to wake me up and informed her that I was having lesson.

Piggy me woke up at 1.30pm. And my lesson starts at 1.30. So, in the end, I took my lunch and gave Hui a rang to see if she can meet me earlier. I was supposed to meet her after my class. Was comtemplating whether to attend the second half of the lecture. If Hui can meet me earlier, I decided to erm... skip lesson. Anyway I was already late mah...

So...... Yeah she could meet me. So off I went to town to meet her. Had to step out of my house fast cause I told my mum I am going to school. *Hehe* Yes I lied. Met Hui first since Noelle and Fen can't meet us so early. Told Hui I want to go m)phosis cause I wanted to show her the white top I saw on Sat. Dere the one I told you guys I strongly refrained myself from getting one lor...

It was such a terrible mistake to step into the store. Yes not only I got myself that top(I got it in green though), I saw another very nice black top too. Without second thoughts I just bought the black one too cause I really like it.

Aside from the two tops from m)phosis, I bought one white Adidas cap too. Have been wanting to get an Adidias cap and since I saw one I like, I just got it. Got discount somemore. *keke* And I hafta admit that buying so many things at one go is really very shiok.

Total damage to my wallet = $80

Can someone please help me? I really need to curb my shopping addiction. I am already very broke and owing people lotsa money. And here I am spending my money shopping!!! So terrible of me!!! And I hafta save money to clear my phone bill, to buy a new handphone, and for a trip to Bangkok during year-end. Shit lar... I really need to stop buying things like clothings, shoes, bag. But it is really so difficult. I seriously need aid!!!

I am not gonna step into any m)phosis stores these few months. To me, it's such a big sacrifice... *sobs* People, stop me from entering any m)phosis stores if you ever go out with me ok... Cause I am SURE to come out with something if I step into them... I NEED TO STOP SPENDING MONEY AND STOP MY SHOPPING ADDICTION!!!

Celebrated my Mid-autum festival( I love to call it yue bing jie in Chinese) at East Coast park yesterday. Not really a celebration I think. No mooncake, no admiring of moon. Just playing the fool around.

Waited for Ben and Colin to finish their game of snooker before proceeding to dinner. After dinner, we bought some candles, sparkles and lantern(only for me and Claire) and went to the beach. My lantern was burnt within like half an hour? Thanks to Aloy for burning my lantern just because he wanted to make use of the candle in my lantern to light up the sparkles. Ben asked if I wanted to get another lantern. I said no coz first, I was plain lazy to walk back and second, I find it a little troublesome to keep holding that lantern. *hahaha*

Playing of sparkles was fun! Did I tell you before that I LOVE playing sparkles? Childish right... But the sparkles were finished in about 15 minutes, after which we just sat down at McCafe for some coffee and talking nonsense session. Oh the cakes there were terrible. Louis and I shared Oreo Cheesecake and Chocolate almond cheesecake. Both CMI. Too cheesy.

Left there at about near 12 midnight. Thanks Louis for taking the trouble to send me all the way home up north cause all of them actually live in the East...

I am dead tired now. Only slept for 4 hours after going Dbl-o yesterday night and got awoken up by somebody early in the morning. Oh Friday night at Dbl-o wasn't as bad as I thought. *Hehe* At first I thought it's gonna be trance. Something I don't like. But throughout the night Top 40s and RnB were played, which I found was quite okay.

Guess what. I spent my whole Saturday morning and half of the afternoon waiting for that somebody just to eat lunch with him. A total of 4 hours loitering around like a zombie without enough sleep. And walking aimlessly into shops only cause damages to my wallet. I don't have much money remember? Sheesh... But at least I bought something useful. A new school bag!!! From m)phosis. Saw a top I wanted to buy too but I refrained myself from getting it. Dropped it into the container although in my heart I was so much wanting to tell the salesgirl: Get me a new piece.

Reached home at 4. Planned to take a short nap before meeting Cylene and girls for steamboat and KTV. But I dilly-dally called Weilie to chat and on my computer to surf net and and ya, blogging. Plus Louis called me to chat too. Now I got no time to sleep. I seriously need some sleep. How nice if I can turn back time for 2 hours so that I can nap. Hee...

I really don't know what to say. Sometimes I really feel so confused and down. But I just ripped off the frown and stick a smile onto my face, telling myself everything is ok and I am just unhappy over nothing. But I can't help thinking about it.

I think you guys don't know what the hell I am talking about. But never mind about that. I am not sad, just unhappy.

We have attained a stage where I really don't know how to define our status with each other. Well, at least I feel so on my side. Yes we can insist that we are friends. Even when there are only the two of us around. But clearly in our hearts, I know we are not.

However, things are not that simple. It might not be a big deal to him. I don't know. But at least it's bothering me. All along I thought that our problem was Problem A. But since there is nothing I can do about it, I just accept it, clear to know where my stand is. It was until when I had a talk with him that I discovered that the actual problem was Problem B. Something that has never come across my mind that that was the reason. But... Problem B was not of a much importance at all, in my perception. But to him, it was something against his principles. I don't know lar...

The things he told me made feel so "ai wan". It hurts. He keeps telling me to find myself a boyfriend, someone who can be together with me and whatever shit. It hurts.

Things are not going to change. At least for this current moment. And I can just pray and hope that it does not turn for the worse.

For people who has no idea what I am talking about, just ignore this post and treat it as I am not in the right state of mind. Cause I am not very sure of what I am talking about here too. *blush*

Yes I am feeling sick again. Guess I have caught a cold. Feeling cold on the outside and heaty within the body. Coughing and sneezing. Gonna take panadol later. I anticipate that it is due to the extreme weather these few days. It rained throughout the whole of today and the following day, the blazing hot sun stood high up in the sky. Can't it be more decisive?

School's gonna start next Monday. I am so looking forward to it. Finally my 3 1/2 months rotting period is over. I promised myself that I am gonna study hard for this semester. I forgotten who, asked me a question a few days back. I am sorry but I really can't recall who that person is. He asked why didn't I make any friends in school. So I explained to him hastily that my classes are all in lecture styles and all students were already in cliches. So it makes it difficult to just make my way and join any group of friends. He replied saying that I must have dressed so shabbily that no one wants to know me. Yes I usually go to school dressed in not-so-nice clothings without any makeup put on. Not even having my eyebrow drawn. I am a very lazy girl to even doll myself up for school. *sheesh*

Perhaps I shall try to dress a little nicer and put on some simple makeup to school. Who knows I will meet my Prince! *laughs* Nah... I am dreaming. SIM's guys are all CMI...

He sounds a little upset. I wonder if it's got something to do with me. *shrugs* He insisted in saying no. I hope he really meant it. I am sorry if I made you unhappy.

Tell you guys a little secret. I am feeling damn freaking cold from just now till now that I havn't got the courage to bathe. Hahaha. Gonna bathe now. It's getting late.

Received my results on Thursday night. My hands were shivering with fear and anxiousness as I navigate the mouse and logged in to my student portal. Actually deep inside my heart I already knew that I will fail some of the papers but somehow or rather I still hope that I can clear all of them.

As expected, I failed Corporate Finance. That module which the questions I spotted didn't come out at all. I was flipping the papers to and fro for 2 1/2 hours during that 3 hour examination.

As a result, I have to stay one more year in school. That will be another 2 years. Just because I failed that freaking paper. This also signifies that my dad have to pay one more year of school fees and I have to sacrifice one year's ability of going to the society to work and earn money.

The whole world came crashing down as the thought of staying back for another year floats in my mind. I know I have let my parents down. I don't know how I should break the news to them. I have never fail any exams before. And now I know the feeling is terrible. Especially when that freaking paper is so damn fucking expensive.

The hardcopy result slip arrived 2 days later. My dad went through the result slip. At first I thought they were bound to scold the hell out of me and I had already prepared myself for the lecturing and that I deserved it. But to my suprise, they just told me one thing.
"You are the one who say you want to study. So make sure you study well."
My Mum asked what is the consequence of failing the paper. I told them I have to study a year more. I thought they are going to scold me. But instead, they said.
"Make sure you study hard"

This is a even greater torture to me. I rather they scold me and blame me for not doing well. Being so encouraging and understanding only breaks my heart and make me more stricken with guilt. What the hell did I do to deserve such nice parents?

I really feel so terrible. Why didn't they scold me?

I have decided to break my remaining 6 modules into 3 per year. So the next 2 years will be quite relaxing for me. Others are taking 4 modules but I am only taking 3. I have already told myself I am going to study real hard and score well for the rest of the 6 modules. I have learnt my lesson. And I learn it the hard way. I have no one but myself to blame. It's me myself who is so dumb to let relationship stuff get the better of me. I am really sorry Mummy and Daddy. I promise you I will do well the next time.

Ginger
Garlic(But I love garlic bread)
Bread
Vanilla
Elmo peeing all around and I gotta clean up the mess
Getting my flip flops wet
Having no programs on weekends (frequency of this happening is increasing)
Getting FAT
Letting my hair drink the soup while I am eating
Tripping and falling down
Being isolated
The feeling of being poor (Yes now!!!)
No one going Mambo with me
When it starts to rain when I am just about to go out
Bad hair day
Having an acne popping on my cheek
Breaking my nails
Paper cuts
He didn't call for the whole day, seems to me that he has forgotten about me
When my computer breaks down
When my sis needs the internet to hand in her assignments
Having to wake up early on Thursday
Starfruit
Kiwi
Mummy never cook when obviously she knows I am going home for dinner
Eating the same kind of breakfast (rather lunch) for 2 consecutive days
Trying on a top which I like but look fat
Having to remove my makeup and bathe when back home from clubbing
Being sick and wobbly
Getting scoldings from my parents when it isn't my fault
Waking up being late for my lectures
Losing mahjong
When my sis wears the clothing I wanted to wear for the day
Handphone gets out of battery when I am outside
Idling at home
When clubs are packed with people and I am sweating like mad
Watching a terrible and boring movie
Friends suddenly back me off the last minute when we have already agreed to meet
Elmo growls at me
Elmo destroys my shoes
Kanna that stupid urine infection
When my favourite Kinder Bueno gets sold out when I crave for it
A toddler or baby yelling and crying non stop on the MRT
Singing my favourite song out of tune during KTV
Menses!!!
Waiting for people (strange enough, the only exception goes to Siew Hwee)
Bean sprouts in bee hoon
When my old friend, migraine, comes back for me
People avoiding me. Just say so if you want to. Don't just avoid and make me think what you are thinking
Getting the urge for toilet when I am on the MRT, I usally break out in cold sweat
Being goggled at by those lecherous ah peks
Sleepless nights
Bland soup

Right, that's all I can think of. Update you guys again.

The bouncer checked my ID yesterday. And I am soooooo happy about it. *laughs* We(me, liz and jac) were in the queue to get in to Zouk. Queuing in front of us were another bunch of girls. They got in without the bouncer checking their IDs. Phyllis who was in front of me also got in without having her ID checked. When it was my turn, the bouncer said:

Bouncer: You ar, must check your IC.
Rachel: Check lor. Shows that I look young. Haha.

Hee hee do i look that I am under 18??? I look younger than my age!!! *Bleams, grins, winks*

Zouk was fun. All those nice songs were out pretty early. At about 2plus. Jac was in a hurry to go and playfully I demanded Alan to tell the DJ to spin those nice songs before I get dragged out of Zouk by Jac and Liz. Alan said the songs would be out by 2.45. I never believed him. Cause he always gives me false hopes. All his predictions were never accurate. Except for once. Yes, yesterday!!! And he was so yaya papaya that he kept saying and nagging and flaunting that he was correct. OMG...

Sheesh had such an enjoyable night yesterday. Went movie, dinner followed by KTV! Watched The maid. Yes I have finally catched it. Not as scary as I imagined it to be. Typical local production. KTV at Party World @ Hello Singtel. Sang and sang and sang. Whoosh!!! This managed to curb my urge for singing. At the most for 3 weeks. *blush* Justin asked me why didn't I join Project Superstar. WTH!!! I almost laughed my head off. *pats forehead and faints* If I joined, most likely I would be the first to get disqualified. Hahaha.

Watching Project Superstar now. OMG Kelly went back to our secondary school. Saw Mrs Eu, Mdm Saudah etc. They have really aged since we left the school. Which was like... 6 years back? Oh ya back to Kelly, I totally have no idea that she was my schoolmate and we belong to the same cohort. We were in different streams but erm... no recollections of seeing her in school leh... No matter how hard Noelle tried telling me who is she, I still don't get it. Short term memory lar...

Alan says he is bringing me out on Friday. But he don't want to reveal where he is bring me to. So if I go missing on Friday, you people should know who to look for and who is the greatest suspect ok? Will update you people where he brings me to after Friday. *bleams*