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Wednesday, November 30, 2005Y
Over the weekend...

Over the weekend...

Ok.
Finally found some mood and inspirations to blog.
Been so busy over the weekend.
Working.

Apart from my usual part time job, I took up the 2 day job offer with Big Boyz Toyz. My job was to walk around the exhibition hall and distibute flyers. Had hell lot of a good time with Cylene there. We just walked around and chit chatting away (We ain't supposed to cling together. But heck) We were like don't what superstars for 2 days. *laughs loudly* So many people came forward to take photos with us and lots of photographers asked us to pose for shots. What a glamourous 2 days for me. Really enjoyed myself. It was superb fun. Had such a great time and still get paid. What a good deal!!! One thing worth mentioning. The Hankook girls are damn hot. Even I see already also feel like nose bleeding lor. *hahaha* But they are well damn paid I tell you. Posting up some of the photos below...

Oh yes I saw Daniel at the BBT event. He used to be my best friend back when I was working with Hugo Boss Fragrance. Lost contact with him since I lost my phone and change my number that time. And I never saw him after that. It's been like 4 or 5 years since I last saw him. And I was so surprised to see him there. Spotted him while I was busy posing in front of a whole pool of photographers. And he winked at me and I got so excited upon seeing him. You understand the feeling of seeing an old friend after losing touch for so many years? So happy to have seen him again. And of course, we exchanged our numbers.

Went Dbl-O after the show with Cylene and the gang and woke up early for work on Sunday. Then rushed down to the lounge and reached home pretty late. Monday was another hectic day for me. Didn't have enough sleep, so I was like a walking zombie going for lecture, tuition and work. Didn't even have the time to eat my dinner. Reached home near 3am and concussed straight into bed after bathing. People start asking me why am I taking so many jobs at the same time and pushing myself so hard. Simple. For the sake of money.

Decided to give Mambo a miss this week. Don't feel the urge to go. Don't know why. No matter how hard Alan tried tempting me, I still didn't feel like going. Perhaps I had really worn myself out. Such an exhausting activity is too much for me to bear.

Chicken Little is out finally!!! Tried asking people out to watch with me today. But in vain. Everyone is not free. Boo!!! Saw 2 is out this week too!!! Part one was super duper nice. I definately want to catch Part two!!! So many nice movies coming up this December. I really hope I have the time to catch all of them. Anyone interested to catch the 2 above mentioned movies with me? Give me a ring ok?

Nice sweet Donald offered to lend me his PSP without me asking. So of course I gladly accept it. Spent my whole day playing the car racing game. But I always end up last place. *hahaha* Despite that, it is a very nice game.

Ok photos...
These are some of the photos those photographers sent me...



Those taken using my camera... Finally found some time to upload them













ends at 11:12 PM

Thursday, November 24, 2005Y
Out of poverty

Out of poverty

Alright.
I am so sick of having a life without money and trying to think of ways and means to scrimp through my everyday.

So it is either:
(1) Find myself a rich boyfriend
(2) Find myself a job

Well as all of you can see, option 1 is much out of the question. I am so unwanted. So that only leaves me with option 2. I am all out to earn as much money as possible now. I want to get out of the life of poverty.

I longed for the days where I can buy whatever I like. Go shopping and spend money on clothes and shoes without the expense of my necessary expenditure for the next few days.

And there are so many things I want to buy. Seriously, I am terribly in need of a new handphone. And I want an mp3 player as well. Boring journey to school is killing me. And more clothes, more cosmetics, more shoes... Blah blah.

No more rotting around at home like a rich man's daughter anymore. And perhaps blog entries will not be so intensive too. Busy working and earning money. No time to blog. And most likely I will be ploughing in to bed after I reach home from work.

Oh ya, I am also earning money for my trip to Bangkok in December. It's been finalised. Yippee!! I want to go shopping there!!!

ends at 11:00 AM

Friday, November 18, 2005Y
Everything is just so fucking complicated

Everything is just so fucking complicated

I never know that so many things can happen in just one night. And it's a god damn blardy hellish night.

I don't know what the hell I was doing.
I don't know why the hell I did that.
I don't know how the hell I allowed such a thing to happen.
One thing I certainly know of. I fucking regret that it happened.
Thinking back, I really feel like killing myself now.

Everyone was shocked and feeling unbelievable. SO AM I.

And it's complicated. Real complicated. With so many issues arising out of the main issue. Things that appeared to be straightforward just appeared so on the surface. Lots of unseenable and complicated stuff are actually happening underneath.

My dear Ms Phua was so smart to hit the bull's eye to the main thing I was fretting over after I related the whole incident to her. Just simply love her so much. She knows me at her fingertips. Well enough to see me inside out. No one else knows me better than she does.

Oh my god I really can't believe and accept that I really did such a thing. I want to scream scream and scream.

I apologise to those people whom I have caused troubles to regarding the incident. To Weilie, no matter how hard I have tried to explain, I just can't get the idea across you. If you really perceive that I am such a lousy and terrible girl, I don't what to say except that it hurts and I am quite disturbed by this. Cause I really mind how you look upon me as. To me you are a person whom I will still care and of a certain importance to me as a friend.

ends at 8:35 PM

Wednesday, November 16, 2005Y
Sentosa Outing

Sentosa Outing

Was at Sentosa on Sunday. I was damn freaking late for 2 hours cause I overslept. Woke up at 12 noon with a shock. Went for mahjong on Saturday night that Hwee's house and lost $40!!! *sobs badly* I have been in a serious losing streak lately. Don't know why I am so suay recently. *pui*

Mahjong session started at 10pm and ended at 7am. Reached home at 8am and dumped myself into bed immediately. Was supposed to wake up at 10am but erm... Hee hee.

Journey to Sentosa was horrible. I looked and felt like a total zombie on the MRT. Nonetheless, I still managed to slap myself awake upon reaching Sentosa. The sunny sun hid behind the cloudy clouds the moment I reached the beach. How dreadful can it be? Waited for about one hour plus before the sun said Hi to me. Quickly got myself changed and dragged Cylene together with Cheryl for suntanning while the rest of the girls were playing card games and the guys playing beach volleyball.

Sun wasn't that strong afterall. *stomps foot* So didn't really got myself tan. Guess its fated lar.

Spent some time soaking in the sea together with the rest of the people and seeing them making fools of themselves. Oh they are sure a funny lot.

Left Sentosa at 7pm and headed for Pastamania at Harbourfront. Oh ya ya!!! On my way to the toilet with Alicia, we saw this New York pizza!! It's a super huge slice of pizza with extra thin layer of crust. Looks so yummylicious!!! Gotta try it someday.

And last but not least, pictures...









That's all for the Sentosa photos and I think I looked especially pretty in my that solo pic. Haha! I seldom capture so nice photo of myself one! My face don't look round at all! Yippee!

Oh there are a few more pics I want them up...



Was at Weilie's house to see my son before my mahjong on Saturday. My son is so super duper cute in the first photo right? That's why I always tell him : Momo you are such a handsome boy u know... The more I see the cuter I find him.

And I pestered Weilie to send me to Hwee's house. He still cheekily posed to take the shot. And he looks so cute too! No wonder so many girls fall for him. *rolled eyes*


ends at 8:10 PM

Tuesday, November 15, 2005Y
New Addiction

New addiction (updated)

Not much blogging done... I am seriously hooked on the H.K Cafe game after I saw my cousin playing it.

Trying hard to break my own high score which stands at $2450 currently.

Try it guys!!!
PS: High score now stands at $3290!!! And I got that brother of mine addicted to this too. He beat my yesterday high score($2970). And his high score is $3350!! Damn it...

ends at 3:07 PM

Thursday, November 10, 2005Y
A fairytale yet to happen? Or won't happen?

A fairytale yet to happen? Or won't happen?

Why is it always the case that the person I like don't like me? Am I really that lousy? Or am I really that detestable and annoying and unlikeable(whatever, there is such a word in my dictionary)?

Maybe I should rush to the bookstore and grab the book titled "Ways to make people fall in love with me". I saw books like this at Mustafa that day.

I feel so lost. So helpless. So confused.

I hate writing down unhappy things like this. And having to repeat them on and off. But this is the situation I am in now. Unhappy.

If you don't like me at all, please let me know. Please put a stop to everything. At the very least it's better than me not knowing anything at all. Not knowing anything makes me feel so insecure. Or rather it is how you are behaving makes me insecure and started to wonder for confirmation.

Everyone asks me to give up and go on with my life. But I refuse to because I want to know your stand.

I hate to be unhappy. Where is the carefree and troubleless me I used to be? Why do I always have to get troubled over the matters of heart? I may look cheerful when I am out with my friends. But when I get down serious late at night alone, am I really happy? The answer is a straight and big NO.

Maybe he is just someone I depend on mentally. I cannot say that I like him totally. Maybe I just need someone whom can show me care and concern and he happens to be the one who came along and I can accept him.

Why don't fairytale happen to me like it did so to many other girls out there?

ends at 5:59 PM

Tuesday, November 08, 2005Y
My personal cure for insomnia

My personal cure for insomnia

Went to watch Saving Face on Saturday. It wasn't a show with much advertising done. Neither was it a heavily invested movie with lots of famous actors/actress. But it is really a nice movie. It addresses issues that are common but in which most people are skeptical about in this modern world. It brings out all these in a funny and comical way. A very meaningful and artistic yet cute and funny movie. Go catch it! Oh but it's a R21 show though. Despite the R21 rating, it is not a show filled with sexual contents. Those who are looking for high sexual contents might get some what disappointed. (Not me!)

Rating of 4/5...

Weekend has been pretty boring this weekend. Only went for mahjong and movie on Friday and Saturday repectively. Sunday was spent going for tuition and manicure. Nothing much to jot down...

I was supposed to have a Mirco test today. I really wanted so much to get prepared for the test. Planned to spent my whole Sunday studying... However well... I did so much things other than studying until it was late at night. Then spent another half an hour or so digging out my lecture notes. After much effort I finally settled down at 1.45 in the morning to study for it. My eyes got so heavy after half an hour that I decided to give the test a miss. I will not be able to finish studying 3 lectures anyway. I started out too late. Therefore, I called up Alan for a chat before concussing in bed.

I finally discovered an immediate remedy for my prolonged insomnia. Studying of my lecture notes!

ends at 5:36 PM

Sunday, November 06, 2005Y
暧昧 -- 杨丞琳

暧昧 -- 杨丞琳

I am now like playing the song in my Winamp for the 2463901th times. I like this song so much. Finally found out the title and singer. Go listen carefully to the lyrics. It's the exact situation I am in now. It just fits in so perfectly.

暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈 找不到相爱的证据 何时该前进 何时该放弃 连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里 毕竟有些事不可以 超过了友情 还不到爱情 远方就要下雨的风景 到底该不该哭泣 想太多是我还是你 我很不服气 也开始怀疑 眼前的人 是不是同一个 真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈 找不到相爱的证据 何时该前进 何时该放弃 连拥抱都没有勇气 暧昧让人变得贪心 直到等待失去意义 无奈我和你 写不出结局 放遗憾的美丽 停在这里


ends at 2:21 PM

Saturday, November 05, 2005Y
Simply irritated

Simply irritated

Pardon me but I am not feeling good right now. Having mood swings recently, though I didn't really show it to anyone. Sometimes I really feel so irritated with myself. Irritated with the situation now. Simply irritated with everything revolving around me. I really feel like breaking down. The exact reason? I don't know.

I need someone to curb this severe mood swing. Perhaps it's the emptiness in me that is wrecking me. No, I would like to stress, I am not a girl who needs someone to place constant attention on me. I don't like to be tied down. I love myself more than anyone. Therefore, I want to be in total control of myself. Part of me is not willing to give up the freedom of being single. But at the same time, I would like to have someone to get rid of the emptiness. I wonder if this sounds a little contradictory. *shrugs*

Where is the one whom I can share my idling time with? Someone whom I can watch dvds with, play computer games, take a stroll down the beach, do funny stuffs together(like going to the zoo, prawning etc), or even going around the whole Singapore for good food.

I had one. But I destroyed it with my own hands. I wonder how things would be different if I hadn't made such a decision.

I am not regretting. I am just wondering...

I don't like the situation I am in now. But what can I do to help myself?

ends at 2:51 AM

Wednesday, November 02, 2005Y
Pretty long entry -- In blogging mood today

Pretty long entry -- In blogging mood today

So many festivals on this week. We have Halloween on Monday, Deepavali on Tuesday, and Hari Raya on Thursday. Whoo Hoo!!!

Spent my Sunday at Siloso Beach together with Alan and some of the Mambo regulars. They played beach volleyball but I just sat there. I am erm... you know scared of balls. Then they played frizbee. I was too lazy to run and hop, plus I am terrible in my speed of nerves' reaction. So I just lied on the beach to tan. But not much tanning done as usual. I give up! After that was followed by dinner at Sakae Sushi. They screwed up my order. Thus I got a main course on the house! Whoo!

Went for my Micro class on Monday. Damn I am having a test next week. After that I met Hui in town for dinner. Dominic joined us too. We got no plans after dinner and hence we decided on catching a movie. Bought the 2am tickets and spent our 2 hour plus of idling time at Cafe Cartel before the show started. It was so fun I tell you. But most of the time it was only Hui and me who were humouring ourselves at the expense of Dominic (Tan). *Laughs* Actually we didn't know his surname. Hui made this up. She says it sounds like a name of an Olympic swimmer. So he shall be called Dominic Tan. (I personally think it sounds nice too) But we still had our fun anyway. Played several games of Bingo there and I won 6 out of 9 games. I still live up to my name of Bingo Queen! This nick was given to me during my secondary school days out of accident. I almost laughed my head off during that 2 hours.

The Exorcism of Emily Rose. Quite a remarkable movie. 3.5 stars given out of 5. However, the crowd in the cinema sucks. First. there was a stupid guy sitting in front of me who was sitting so straight till his shoulders were higher the the edge of the seat. And his gigantic head blocked half of the breadth of the screen. I really felt like chopping his head off at that moment. I can't see the subtitles and I had to leaned my head sideways just to watch the whole screen. This type of people are damn inconsiderate lor. Sit so straight for what? Not everyone is taller than him lor. Luckily for me, he started to slouch a little halfway through the show.

Then there were a bunch of kids aged around 17 or 18 making such nuisance of themselves. One of them received a call and all of them (around 7 or 8) started talking and discussing. In the middle of the show. Then most of them just ran out after a while. I think it was some "Biar Zui" thingy. Childish. The guy sitting right in front of Hui was the most irritating. Kept standing up and talked to his friends who were in the front row. If he want to join them, jolly well go and play with his life. Don't be so indecisive and get up and down so many times and disturb others who really wanted to watch the show.

Just don't understand why there are so many inconsiderate people in the cinema. Can't everyone cooperate so that all can enjoy the show?

Went for steamboat just now with Cylene, the girls and the Dbl o gang. So bloated now.

Above were my movements for these few days.

I had my menses thrice for the past month. which means more than half of the days in the whole month I had been *ahem* like running tap water. Maybe I am dying soon. Don't what the hell is wrong with my body. *faints*

I went for my tuition lesson on Monday. My kid always love to play piano to me during the end of each lesson. She seems to enjoying playing piano. Me too. But I don't know how to. I often wonder why my mum didn't sent me for piano lessons when I was a kid. Piano is my favourite musical instrument. Maybe piano lessons were too expensive and my mum thought it was a waste of money. Maybe because my mum didn't know my love for playing piano. I am not blaming her but I just think it would be good if I get to learn it during my childhood days.

If I have a daughter in the future, I will certainly bring her for piano lessons. Since I don't get to know how to play. My daughter shall. But if she is not interested, then let her be. I won't force her. But everything is worth a try and see if it arouses her interest. I will also bring her for ballet lessons. I will groom my daughter into a talent. I will doll her up and buy pretty dresses for her. I will help her tie her long silky hair every morning before she goes to school. I will make sure that my daughter is a sweet pretty little darling. I will name my daughter Ashley. Or maybe Karin. I like both names. As for Chinese name, it will be set on Yi(3) Xuan(1). Such a pretty name to go with a pretty daughter like mine. Ha... I have always been day dreaming about such things. I would prefer a duaghter than a son actually. There are lots more of things you can do to a daughter compared to a son. But whatever it is, whether it is a boy or a girl, I will still dote them as much.

Yeah it's Zouk again later at night. So happy. *claps and laughs* The renovation done at Zouk wasn't really magnificent. Only the lights hanging outside and the walkway tunnel were cool. The place is still pretty much the same but the dance floor has become smaller. 7 million spent on renovation. Looking at the whole thing, I think it is a little not worth it. Most of the money goes to the designer items. And I also think that the concept of the club that they want to bring out to people doesn't really stand out cause the feel of the concept was not uniform through the different parts of the club. A little disappointed but still I will visit there still pretty often. *winks*

ends at 5:12 PM