It's gonna be 12 midnight soon. AND I M STILL STUCK IN OFFICE!!! I am freaking late for mambo can?

I don't mind staying till late on other days. But not on Wednesdays please...

Can someone help me drag that fellow out of the table so that I can quickly get him to sign the documents??? I am late. Very late.

And to think that I am going to have problems with the bag deposit later. SHIT!!!

And I still have to rush down by taking a cab. #(&($&{:>&^

Been so tired over the weekend. Lack of sleep for the past week. So much so that I woke up late for work on Sunday and had to take a cab and sped down to office.

Met up with Alan after my work on Friday and went Club Momo. Yes I went. Dun be surprised. Wanted to go there to catch the Togo vs France match but it ended up they were screening Switzerland vs Korea. *Sianz* Before the match started I was so so hungry that I dragged Alan to the nearby cafe to eat and talked till 2 plus before we went in to that noisy place again. Drank abit and reached home at 5 plus.

After I knocked off on Saturday, which was a pretty early knock off coz all those people left early, I did some window shopping, had dinner, and settled down at Coffee Club for some desserts. Their famous Muddy mud pie was too sweet for me. Didn't really find it that yummy. Though I like chocolate, I prefer those rich or dark chocolate. I simply hate caramel with chocolate. So sweet. Managed to catch the first half match of Germany vs Sweden match before I went Club Momo again. Continued watching the match upon reaching there and oh, I saw Weilie the cat there. Hahaha.

Drank again till 4 plus and I was really that damn tired till I kept bugging Alan to leave. *hehe* So in the end both of us left first and he got to fetch me back before returning again. Didn't really drink much cause I had to work on Sunday. Luckily I wasn't too high on alcohol if not I guess I would have skipped work.

Sunday after work was spent with Hui and Zhixiang. Went Millenia Walk and I bought almost $10 worth of choclate. So satisfied with the load and we walked around a little and I brought them to where all those coin-operated toy "Tikum" machines were l;ocated. There we were like 3 little kids turning all those eggs out to see if we got the toys we wanted. Zhixiang blamed me for bringing Hui there coz she spent 10 over dollars on those. *HAha*

Went home and surfed net awhile and caught a 13 hour sleep. Totally replenished the loss of sleep that I had been surviving through caffine. Was supposed to go gym with Hui on Monday, but ended up going temple to pray. I got a bad lot for my exams. Shit. *prays hard* Then we went foot reflexology and I screamed, yelled, laughed there. The whole process was so torturing. Pain and itch. Hui's mum said I was very noisy. *haha* Then went to Hui's house for 3 rounds of mahjong. Yeah won some money.

I just woke up after sleeping for 10 hours. *yawnz* But I can foresee it's gonna be another week of lack of sleeping before my offday comes.

Counting down. 3 more weeks to Pattaya and Bangkok. Yipee!!!

I have been behaving like a lunatic for the past 2 days. Diagnosed with the laughing virus invasion. Kept laughing non stop when I was out. Just a simple joke or bo liao thing can ignite my non stop laughter. Laughing all the way from the moment I reached Millenia Walk till Suntec till I sat down near the Fountain of Wealth. Laugh till my tummy hurt, tears flowed out and really felt like dying. I am a person who laughs easily, and that irritating person kept making me laugh. And still said I behaved like a hysteric woman and I laughed till very loud. Coz I just bursted into laughter. No image to talk about. And I couldn't bother to care about those weird looks that others shot me.

Same when I went Bugis just now. One word could trigger the laughter. I guess I might have the probability of laughing to death.

When I chatted over the phone with Hui just now I also laughed till I almost died. But at least I got accompany. Hui laughed harder than me. Two of us were lost cooking up jokes and nonsense about the topic skeleton. Actually is more of her la. I was just busy laughing.

Enough of the laughing.

I am dead broke this time. Anyone care to fund up the "Save Rachel Fund"? Haven't get my pay yet. Kept forgetting to call my ex-boss. And there are so many things I want to buy. And I kept getting nagged at. Being discouraged to buy clothes. *frown*

I can't wait for Bangkok and Pattaya. One more month.

Oh ya and happy birthday, Skelly Lin. *laughs*

Omg I just stumbled upon a piece of shocking news.

I found out by chance that my primary school friend whom I was once rather close to is married. I remembered how another girl and I often went up to her house trying hard to bake erm... not so up to standard cakes. Well, you can't expect much from 3 primary 6 girls right?

Ok back to the topic, I still remembered a few years back she was very negative about relationships, after a failed one. Now she is happily and blissfully married. I have lost contact with her though, but accidentally came across one of our mutual friend's profile and got to know the news.

Why is everyone around me getting married? Have I reached the standard marriagable age?
My Noelle is married.
My Hui is planning for marriage.
My Qiumei is going to plan for marriage soon.
Winnie is married.
Lihuan is married.
My far distant cousin who is same age as me is married.
Sabrina is married.
Zi Wei is married
And lots of my not so close friends are married as well.

Gosh I am getting very worried for myself. Really very worried. Guess I shouldn't be playing the fool anymore. Am I not getting any younger? Please tell me not can? Even my own mum nags at me from day to day asking me when I want to get married off so that she can stop serving this spoilt princess.

She thinks I don't want to get married meh... But main problem is... to whom?

Oh ya that day Hui and I were at this topic. I complained that if I am able to get married, no one could be my bridesmaid anymore. And you know what that evil girl said? She said by the same I get married 10 years later her daughter will be around 8 years old. So her daughter can be my bridesmaid since she missed the chance to. Very black-hearted right??!!! Told you she just keeps cursing me non-stop.

I aim to get married at age 25 or max 26. God please, I don't want to be left on the shelf and become an old spinster.

Just finish clearing small part of my room. I am so amazed by myself. I packed my room. Know what motivated me? I couldn't find one outer top that I bought from m)phosis. Planned to wear it tomorrow for work. Running out of office wear. To my dismay after I packed those tons of garbage, the top is still nowhere to be found. God knows where I threw it.

Went for mini supper after work with Hui and Mr Tay. Didn't eat much. Only ate some fried wanton. Guess it's going to worsen my dry cough. And speaking about my cough, I think I have passed the virus to all my colleagues. All the girls are sick now. After the supper me and Hui talked in the car for almost 2 hours. Gossips, discussions, whinings, and lots more. Always seems to have never ending stuffs to talk to her though we have been friends for so many years. Mr Tay said we are 2 big chatterboxes. *hehe*

Work has been so far so good. But guess will become more busy as I get more accustomed to the work, coz I always see my colleagues busying like hell while I just sat there trying hard to memorise the contract. And I have finally managed to memorise each and every terms and conditions stated in the contract. *applause*

Just registered for my next semester's timetable in the afternoon. Hopefully it will go accordingly and I don't have to make any changes to it. I need to make changes if I have to take any re-sits. *pray hard* It's my final semester. But I don't like the timetable at all. I got no better choices. Those lecture slots are weird. Either Monday lecture or Saturday. Knock knock. Hello Full time lecture on Sat??? So of course I chose the Monday lect as I need to work on Sat. So it ended up I got a morning lect and an afternon lect on Mondays. My office offdays are on Mondays. So all my offdays are gone to the lectures. So my life is only work and study now. BORING... Having to wake up super early on my offday to attend lecture. And it's 2 lectures at one go. Poor me. I pity myself. Please do pity me ok?

Another lecture is on Tuesday morning. I was given an alternative on Wed morning as well. By right I should choose the Wed lect coz it will not be so tiring for me as I break the lecture schedule and I also can get to enjoy the evening and night of my Monday as I don't have to wake up early the next day. But I still chose Tues. Coz I don't want to be a zombie at Zouk on Wed night after the lecture and work. Mambo has always been in my consideration every year when I plan my timetable. *hehe*

Should I bet on soccer for the match tomorrow? But I have been down on luck lately ever since I was kana cursed by Hui. She just keeps cursing me non-stop. Grrrr....

Still have to wake up a little abit early later in the afternoon. Going for the Balestier roasted duck rice with Hui and Mr Tay. I have always been their lightbulb. Dun care... But looking at the food I eat how am I going to be on diet? Haiz... it's hard. Real hard.

I am freaking angry!!!

Reached home at 12.30 after work and I am so sick of surfing the net every night. And I am so bored as I can't get to sleep so early. So I thought of watching the taiwanese drama "It started with a kiss" that I have bought several months back. Still left a few more episodes to go.

I pressed the on button on the controller and there I was only to discover that the tv was spoil. No images and it keeps getting auto shut-off after like 3 seconds. That stupid brother of mine just off the tv 10 mins ago before I tried switching it on. Called that detestable bro and he can't do anything except to blame it on me. Claiming that I SPOILT THAT DAMN TV.

Fuck him understand???

He was playing the PS2 games before I went for work and when I came back he was still at it. So to say he had been playing for 9 hours. Now he says I spoilt the tv. I rebuted and said he spoilt it coz he kept playing and he still can get dulan with me.

He asked why when he play it was ok and it got spoil when I on it.

Very simple. COZ I SUAY LOR!!!

Must be the tv cannot take it already and when he off it, it died. So the poor me who tried to on the already died tv, I became the scapegoat.

He die die won't take it that it was due to his constant gaming when I tried telling him maybe the tv got too hot and some wires or parts got burnt or something.

I am so fed up with him!!!

And now I have lost the only method of killing time. How heated up I am now!!! Argh!

I am so bored now. Can't sleep. First, I just ate a bowl of prawn mee and I will get horribly fat if I sleep immediately. Second, waiting for an irritating bugger to finish mahjong before calling me.

I am just back from mahjong too. It's just not my day today. Lost soccer, lost mahjong. My poor Nippon lost to Australia.

With the daily "nourishment" of late night suppers, I have gained back 2kgs. And I have decided to return back to diet from now onwards.

Went Sentosa today with Hui and Mr Tay. We reached there very late, about 2 plus. But luckily the sun was still very strong. I can't decide whether I want to get tanned or just let my current tan fade. Coz as you know, it's very very very difficult for me to get tanned but at the same time I want to have a feel of how I look like being tan.

I asked him whether I should be fair or tan. And after much contemplating he finally said fair. And I said in that case I would get a sunscreen lotion, coz my banana boat tanning oil had already finished and I need to get either one so that I won't get burnt. But I don't know why I still bought a suntan lotion. And seeing such hot sun I can't help it but lie down under the sun. *laughs* Might as well dun asked him in the first place. But erm... as usual, I didn't really got tan. Guess I should just give up the hope.

I am totally broke. I desperately need to get my pay now. Too much shopping done this month. And I seriously need to start saving up for my Bangkok trip next month.

I think no one would be my bridesmaid when I get married. How sad. (provided some idiot would want to marry such horrible wife)

Why does Wednesday seem so far? Gotta work tomorrow. I shall be seating in tomorrow, learning how my GM does the button up. And I am expected to get those contracts at the back of my hand. How stress. Argh!

That person haven't call. I think he is still at North only lor. And I am so full now. My god. I am fat.

Shopping just simply makes me a poor girl.

Ouch.

Bought a jacket, a top, a pair of shoes, a pair of earrings on Wednesday while waiting for Hui to knock off. Had dinner with Alan. He asked: I thought you came town to get your jeans only? End up with so many paper bags instead. Hee hee hee.

Did manicure and pedicure just now. I am broke broke broke broke broke!!! Don't know when am I able to take pay from my previous job.

My current job seems fun. Having training for the first 2 days.

Suddenly recalled something. I was studying at Mac the other day and there was this couple sitting on this table right in front of me. So of course I can't help but eavedropped to their conversation. They were of middle-aged and rather shabbily dressed in oversized t-shirts. I came to knew that they just got together a night before. The guy kept pressing for the girl to see his dad and asked her when will she be mentally prepared to see him. One year from now? half a year? My thoughts: This type of thing can plan one year in advance de meh? Not when both parties reckon that their relationship is stable enough to officially annouce to parents de meh?

And the guy kept on planning for a lot of things like when to get ROM, how will the wedding be like etc. I was like, hello you just got together with ur girlfriend yesterday... And the poor girl, I think she is a malaysian wokring in Singapore, looked rather intimidated and just kept nodding and saying "orh".

I guess the guy was pretty anxious about getting a wife because of his age. (He looked around 40 plus, balding head) Perhaps that's why he wanted everything fast.

This makes me wonder. Why are couples together?

And there is another friend of mine, having chatting with him over the MSN the other day. He was too afraid of getting into another realtionship that might fail again. And his mentality was
that he wanted to be very sure of a relationship that will end up in the aisle before committing to it.

This further makes me wonder. Why do couples get together?

If you just wanted to get yourself a wife, why bother wasting time to get yourself a gf? Is getting a gf solely a stepping stone for a wife? Do couples get together just to get married? If you know a person will not be your future spouse, will you will remain with him/her?

If not, what's love??? Is a courtship between couple based on marriage or love? You decide to take someone as your bf/gf because you love him/her or because you think he/she is your ideal spouse? And you get married because you think you must get married and therefore you find yourself a partner, or you get married out of love for your partner and decide to spend the rest of your life with him/her?

What is your most initial motive? Isn't marriage supposed to be based on the deep love for each other? Why are people getting so procedural nowdays? you do something coz you think you should, not based on your feelings anymore. Why are people like that? It's so scary don't you think? Even a relationship can be this goal oriented.

To me, if you think you are happy and you enjoy each other's company and you have feelings for each other, then just be together. You don't think about whether you are guaranteed to marry this somebody. So as time goes by and the relationship gets more stable, the two will then come to think about marriage and spending the rest of his/her life with each other. The most initial motive when you get together with this person should not be that "I think I will marry this person". A relationship is developed out of feelings, and slowly the feelings develped into a strongly bonded one, so strong that it leads to marriage. So, a couple gets married for love, not marry for the sake of marrying.

What's love? What's marriage? Sigh...

My hellish period is finally over.

It is very funny how things turn out at times.

I thought I will do best in my CF paper. But it turns out that it was a killer paper which everyone didn't expect it to be. All those questions were never seen before. In contrast, for those papers which I thought I would probably just fail, I knew how to tackle all those questions.

I thought I will be on cloud nine once I stepped out of the examination hall today. But it turns out that I feel so indifferent. And I begin to worry for my results.

Life is just full of uncertainty.

I will be starting a new job with effect from Thursday. Better working hours with better pay. Thanks to my dear girl who introduce me this job. And I will be able to see her everyday. How nice! And I am still able to go Mambo after work. How doubly nice!! Will be working as a customer service officer at Hui's office. Hope everything will go smoothly for me. No matter what it will still be better than my current job. Late working hours, lower pay, and very high risk of being pulled out regardless of my strong unwillingness to. But I did have my fair share of fun time working there too. Working there is just like having fun.

But I won't be able to spend my usual Sundays at Sentosa with the Mambo cliche anymore. Coz I need to work on Sunday afternoon. Sorry guys.

I have lost a good 4kg ever since I studied hard for my exams. I don't know if it is due to stress, inconsistency of having meals, lost of appetite or my efforts in dieting a week prior to my revision that contributed to the lost in weight. Oh and I have been sick all these while. I think all matters. My XXXX XXXX is diminishing. Good sign. But I have turned into a sickly girl. Just had fever the night before till now. Feel so horrible. And there is never ending number of medicine for me to take everyday. *shakes head*

Talking about eating, the best meal I had all these while was the meal I had with the girls on Saturday. As I was saying, I went shopping on my own and it was great! Bought myself 2 tops from Mango, one pair of Levis jeans and a pair of m)phosis slippers( but don't have my size at the Taka outlet so got to get it from another). But the crowd at Orchard was horrendous. Hui and Elle came to meet me after they got their stuff done and we went to a fine eating place somewhere along Fisherman's Village. It says 'dining by the sea' and we got attracted to it.

It was a nice place for a dinner. And we spent 3 hours plus eating there. And we ate a hell lot of food that amazed the waitress. We had 6 bowls of soup (4 tomato, one cream of mushroom and one tom yam), one calamari, one dish of sotong, one dish of button mushroom, one spare rib main course, one butter tiger prawn with rice and one half kg cake. We ordered escagots too, but I think all the snails went missing that the dish became unavailable. By the time we finished the cake, our stomachs were bloated. And guess who ate the most and kept wanting to order food? Ms Phua Siew Hwee. The skinniest and smallest size of us all. We took lots of pics with Hui's camera. Shall go get the pics from her.

After dinner we proceeded to mahjong at hui's house. We were lack of one player so I got Karhwee as a stand in. That bloody hell this one I definitely got to mention. I was losing all along until I almost went bankrupt and there was this particular game that I managed to wait for one or four 'bamboo' to 'gao' my 5 fold max. This idiotic bugger Karhwee who was my 'shang jiao' was waiting for the same 2 tiles and he won when elle threw the bird can? But his tiles only one fold!!! I was damn frustrated at that moment can. I don't mind if I was winning, but I was losing severely and that was my only good chance to recoup back the losses. I was so devastated when he opened up his tiles while I opened mine too. But luckily my luck turned for the better during the later part and I managed to not only recoup back what I lost and also won quite abit. So at the end of the day I was not as agitated.

So much for the mahjong, the girls gave me a very very pretty white watch as my birthday present. Love it to bits but I need to go and adjust the strap before I can wear.

So overall I got one red Adidas watch, one white strappy watch, one priceless birthday card, one ball of pretty blue flowers, 3 cakes(actually one is cupcake, one cheesecake and one up till now I still don't know what flavour cake from Swissbake), one chokechain, one bangle and one ring for my birthday this year. I am such an elated birthday princess. Now who is going to get me the Puma world cup Italy blue jacket that I have been aiming for since 2 months back??? Hehe.

And talking about World Cup. Yeah it's about to begin!!! So excited, not only because I have the chance to bet but I can also catch those matches. But watching a match is more exciting when you place a small bet on it. Lalala... I am not a football betting addict. I just bet for the fun of it.

I am super tired now, feeling so goggy, down with fever. I think I am kana cursed lor. Gotta sleep early tonight. Medical appointment at 10am tomorrow. After that I must come home to rest awhile, then meet Hui for shopping before she works, and do some shopping myself while waiting for her to knock off. I can foresee damage to be serious tomorrow. After she knocks off we shall proceed to my favourite activity. And I got so excited yesterday that I kept thinking that today is Wednesday.

Alright enough of updates, sickly girl is going to go lala land already.

I am so bored at home!!! Had a real good sleep just now. It's been long since I had such a deep sleep and not waking up constantly half way through. The moment I opened my eyes it was already 1.45pm. Hee hee.

Meeting the girls at 7. Hui gotta work and Elle got tea class till 6.30. Boo!!! No one to accompany me now. Guess I am going to prepare and go down town alone first while waiting for them. It's bored staying at home. And I am like being quarantined for the past 3 weeks. GOING SHOPPING NOW!!! Got the shopping mood in me today. Plus pay coming in in a few days. Kekeke.

Alan says looking at the way I spent I won't have any money left for BKK. I also think so. But heck. I want shopping badly now. Anyway pay and tuition fees will still be coming as long as Iwork and able to replenish the damage that I have done.

Or look it in another way, it's time for me to give myself a little reward for the torturous time I have been through. Hiya whatever!! Bye!!!

I am tired. Shall blog more the next time. Only slept 4 hours last night due to the stupid Econs paper. But luckily efforts did quite pay off.

Last paper to go on Tues. The paper I pin the most hopes on. Exams are such a torment.

Oh and not forgetting a slight belated Happy Birthday to myself. A year seems to zoom past so fast and I have achieved exactly nothing for the past one year. I am supposed to graduate this month. But haiz...

Thanks for all your smses and calls. This goes out to Kar Hwee, Peng, Weilie, Mylene, Chenhao, Joanne, Jingfen, Hui, Elle, Simon, Alan, Donald. Though I replied quite late coz I was busy studying last minute. And thanks Mr Tay for your strawberry sundae and accompanying me through the night while the clock striked tweleve and I was in the midst of those notes. Though you never said happy birthday to me. *humph*

Oh ya and especially to that Alan who made me laughed like hell because of his funny call. Thinking about it makes me feel like bursting out laughing again. Hahahahaha...

Dinner with the girls tonight. To celebrate Elle and my birthday. It's like an annual thing you know. And Elle is pressing for mahjong after dinner. Shall I give in to her at the expense of studying for my last paper? Hmmm.

Oh oh oh and I HAVE TO mention, I really love that sweet Hui so much. To think she and Mr Tay accompanied me through the whole night before my first paper until 4 plus in the morning, and she took the effort to wake up at 8 just to fetch me to Expo for my exam. And waiting for me through the 3-hour paper just to fetch me back home again before she went back and take a nap before going to work. I almost freaked out that night due to stress, on the verge of a mental breakdown (I am serious), having tummy upset and puking sensation and total loss of sleep despite the fatigue, and loss of appetite and feeling giddy. Luckily she and Mr Tay were there to encourage me and gave me moral support. If not I wouldn't know if I were be able to make it this far.

How many people are willing to go till this extent for a friend? I am really touched by her sweetness. Can't find other words to express how I feel. Just that I really love her. I think besides my parents, she will be the most important person in my life. And I am lucky and appreciative to have her always by my side.

Gonna sleep. Shall come back again after our dinner.