Just woke up with a super duper ultimate serious spinning headache. I am feeling damn grouchy now. Horrible mood. Tried hard vomitting just now to make myself feel better. But not of much help. Feels like dying now.

Laid on the bed yesterday at 3 am. but brain was so tensed up and I can't get myself to sleep until 6 plus in the morning. Then after sleeping for 2 hours, that idiotic brother of mine talked as if he thinks he is at a war site and I could get back to sleep after being woke up by that noise pollution. So I woke up and study. Till 6pm, I could not take it anymore and rushed home to sleep. Woke up again at 11plus with this spinning sensation. This is always what happens when I sleep in the evening.

Plus, I have not eaten anything for the whole day except for that half a packet of nasi lemak in the morning. Stomach is empty but I have got no appetite.

The headache is driving me nuts. And this stupid exam is turning my life upside down. I am feeling damn terrible.

Depression. Very critical depression. And the whole world seems to have offended me. Absolute solitude.

It was till today that I realise that we are able to fly to London for our convocation. Was studying together with some friends when one of them mentioned about it. She plans to fly there for her convo. Theory: Since we are unable to study in London due to lack of $$$, we took the program as an external student. So must at least fly there for convo coz you are an UOL graduate. Seems justifable.

I also want to go London for my convo!!! But how am I going to save enough for the air ticket??? Definitely I am not siao enough to go alone and attend the convo alone. So probably I will want my parents and dear dear to go with me. 4 SQ tickets to London cost about $8000. And what about the expenses and hotel stay? So I think I can drop the idea and take the convo in sg. Unless my dear dear dio Toto. Which erm... sad to say has a rather low probabilty.

Another thing, most likely going BKK in july. So is BKK going to be sort of my graduation trip?? Seems very... -_-" Since it's going to be my graduation trip, can we go Taipei instead??? *looks at dear dear pitifully* He does read my blog. Taipei isn't too much to ask for right? It's not as if I want to go Milan or Frankfurt or Los Angeles...

To add salt to my wound, MY DEAR SIEW HWEE IS CURRENTLY HAVING FUN IN TAIPEI. Bloody hell, would have gone with her and Valerie if not for my stupid exams. I really want to go Taipei badly...

And before I end, pleased to note that this is the 200th entry. :)

I am sOoooOOOoooo busy this week!!! So busy that I am going crazy! Monday was a self declared de-stress day for me. Went JB with my colleagues Wendy, Kelly, Colin and Colin's good friend Ken. It was a very fun trip. The girls went saloon to cut and dye the hair while the guys went for body massage. The hair turned out not bad, and currently I have a strong urge to perm my hair after seeing so many nicely perm hair on the Japanese hair magazine. Coz my hair style now is similar to theirs, just that it is not curled. However effects will only last for about 3 months and needs alot of time to maintain and well... I am a lazy girl.

But it's really so pretty!!

Just imagine 2 or 3 weeks ago I was thinking of doing soft rebonding. I am fickle minded.

Did some shopping and went for pedicure. Didn't go for hands coz I itchy hand peeled all my nails and my fingernails are so short now, no point doing.

I bought a pair of sandals from Vincci. which I like it alot. But stupid Skelan said they were ugly. -_-"'

The trip was so fun that Wendy suggested going next time immediately after we reached back sg. But I guess must wait until my exams are over. Which will be in June.

From Tuesday onwards, I have been diligently attending lectures from 10 - 4pm, which I had to wake up at 8am, and after lectures end I did some self revision in school till 8 plus before I take a bus down to town for work. Still had alot of work to be cleared in the office. Still stayed back in the office after everyone had went home becoz I could find any more time to finish my work. Reaching home at 1 plus and went to bed at 2am. Then sleep and the whole routine starts again. Hectic!!!

And I was half day late for lecture today becoz my stupid handphone alarm didn't ring.

And I tell you it is so difficult to find place to study in school during this period. The whole SIM students seems to stay in school to study. Everyone is having exam. I could not find a single seat in the library. All hundreds over seats were taken up. So no choice but to study on the benches which can be found around school. But even such benches are also in hot demand. Luckily I could find one by walking around searching. The only thing that disrupts me, is the irritating drilling and bombing that came from the construction of the escalators. It's driving me nuts. Especially when I could solve an equation and the drilling is going on and on. Furthermore I won't get benefited from the building of the escalators coz I would have already left by the time it is ready. Damn. Why can't they think off contructing it earlier? But still, the school is still quite a nice environment to study. A pity that I live so far away fom school, and it is just not worth it spending 2 hours travelling to and fro just for self revision. *Looks at people who stay around sch with envy*

Shall be going to sleep soon. Seriously lack of sleep nowadays. And I still have 2 tuitions tomorrow before I do some revision, and after which I had to go back to office. Super super busy!!

Currently fretting over my exams. Stupid exams! Before long, I will be a graduate!!! (Finally) Have to start finding jobs after my exams end. And very soon, I will be embarking on a career journey. A career with prospects, growth and learning opportunities.

I have been asking myself, what do I want as a career and which industry do I have interest in? Didn't really gave this much thought till recent. Cause of the fact that I am stepping into the working society in few months time. And I have finally decided. I want to work in the banking industry!!! Heard from Weilie that banks pay well. With fat bonuses. He is currently working at UOB and looks like he is doing quite well with a diploma and a coming degree.

And lucky me, economy is picking up and doing well these recent years. Hope it is not difficult to find an ideal job with satisfactory salary. I was browsing through DBS website just now for career opportunities, and they do offer positions that welcome fresh grads! Woo hoo!!! Positions like Anaylst in Financial reporting and Group Finance, Relationship Officer in Private banking all sounds very appealing to me.

I really hope that I can secure a job like these. However, on the down side, I am really worried that my degree might not be competitive to others. I can only achieve at best a second lower honours from UOL-SIM. How to compete with those from the local Unis?? I think mine compared to theirs is like so worthless and sia-suay lor. Very demoralising. But Weilie said classification in the degree only affects the starting pay. And banks do hire alot of grads from SIM. Won't kanna comdemn. But I am still worried.

Imagine thousand other grads are also looking for similar jobs. *shakes head*

Anyway, anyone cares to hire me? I am eager to learn and possess good interpersonal skills. Have experience in sales, admin and clerical, customer service bla bla bla. Just give me a starting monthly salary of around 2.2K and I will be prepared to slog under your mercy. Anyone???

Haha.

And oh ya, my computer kanna reboot that time. And I lost my nicely prepared resume!! Took me so much pain to prepare for that during my poly days. At least it was drafted out under the guidance of my Biz writing tutor that time. Now I have to redo everything from the start and make sure it looks attractive. It's such a chore. Damn it!!!

I tried to do the dunno what income tax e-filing but the stupid iras website is under maintenence.

"The daily maintenance is carried out from 2am to 6am (SGT) on Mondays to Saturdays and 2am to 830am (SGT) on Sundays. Please try again later."

Need to everyday also maintain one meh? I wonder when will be the next time I can remember to do the e-filing. But to my knowledge I don't have to pay any income tax lar. And I also dunno how it works. I only know it is a very troublesome thing. Argh! Waste my time only.

Hey guess what??? I am at mac!!! Today is a lonely Saturday night for me. I went home straight after work and since I have no programs on, I have decided to make a trip to Mac for study. And I brought my lappy along!

I suddenly feel that I love mac so much.

People close to me should know that all along I don't really like mac coz I am so sick and tired of their burgers. But providing wireless network has made me changed my views!!! Yeah yeah...

But I am supposed to come mac to revise. *tap fingers and look around*

After much delay, here's part 2 of the tioman trip. Thanks to mac. Wahahaha!!!

And on the 3rd day of the trip, we went snokelling!!








He wanted to feed the fish with the bread while taking this photo but was so scared that the fish bit him. Useless!!! But the fish there were super agressive for bread can. A few fish saw the bread crumbs and the next second, the whole school will come dashing!


After coming up.

We went for another round of fruitless fishing after that. While I was too bored coz there was no excitement, I decided to snap snap and snap.






The bush in the centre is our happy little island!

And the cats there are super friendly can. You just whistle then they will come. And they will straight away sit down on your lap. Ma chiam they know you very long like that.


The cat is aiming at the sotong inside the plastic bag.



After the sun set, we went for went for bbq buffet dinner. The food was simply but delicious.





After the filling dinner we sat by the beach and talked about everything, at the same time trying to look out for shooting stars coz I saw a few last time I went there. However, as it was a full moon night, the moon made the sky so bright that it was hard to see the stars.

Then we proceeded to their beach bar for some drinks.




Even their alcohol taste better!!! I forgot what brand I drank, but it tasted more like blackcurrant soft drink rather than alcohol. I could find that in any 7-11 though. Very sad.

On the last day, we still had some time after the checked out. So we roamed around a little and took somemore photos.













We went to the cafe and had the very last drink for the trip.





After the drink we headed for the jetty. the ferry was supposed to arrive at 12pm. As I still had some bread with me, I entertained myself by feeding the fish again!


Countless of fish grabbing for the tiny punch of bread.


Don't ask me why he smiled until fake. (Maybe he is tired of taking so many photos with me already)

We waited until 12.30 and still no sight of the stupid ferry. Everyone was getting impatient and I kept whining and whining. Then we took out poker cards and play. The stupid ferry came at 1pm lor!!! And inside was freaking cold! I swear the temperature pa dui-a 15 degree lor.

Reached back sg at about 7 and went to his house to eat dinner as it was "yuan xiao ye". I was so hungry that I ate 3 bowls of rice. I cleared their rice cooker!! Hoho!!!

The whole trip is so memorable. Looking forward to the next trip. Most probably Bangkok in July. But currently Thailand seems so chaotic. If situation persists we may have to call off the plan. *keeping fingers crossed*

Ok i shall go back for my revision le. Boring Saturday...

Why do I have a sudden feeling of missing him so much? Reminiscing...