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Tuesday, April 22, 2008Y
I am so so lost

I feel so lost. I don't know what the fuck I am doing with my life. I am supposed to leave my curent job after I was done with my final exams last july. Now after 8 months I am still at my current job. It is not that I do not want to leave. Not that I never try finding other jobs. I have gone to bank's website to submit applications, tried calling up agents and sent my resume online, asked around and submit resume to those friends' recommendation. And none replied. None even arranged for an interview. This is so depressing you know. I know I am not trying hard enough and putting in my total effort. But at least if there are replies they keep me motivated to try even hard and assure that I am on the right track.

On the other hand, my current job is not too bad. Perhaps that explains for the fact that I am not trying hard enough. I am kind of in this comfortable zone, everyday wake up in the afternoon, go for work (sometimes tuition before my work), knock off, meet either Tintin or hotlink amd make merry, go home surf net, and sleep in the morning at 6am. It's like my daily routine. And the working hours enable me to meet Tintin often and spend alot of time together. I have nice colleagues like Wendy, Cyn and Ah Biah where we can joke, gossip and laugh about anything under the sun. Salary wise is still ok. A few hundred bucks lesser than what I will get if I pursue a better position. Workscope wise is still manageable, just that at times will get a little stressed up and lost for travel arrangements. But recently after Ah Biah wash her hands off travel, my work has been piling up. *frown And sometimes I've got to talk and entertain crazy people (like my recent Mabel, and lots more that I have already forgotten). They always make me feel absurd and worked up. Those aside, actually my job is alot relaxed as compared to others.

But, it makes me feel so lost. I feel that I am not growing to achieve better things. There is no goals in life, no passion, no motivation. I must pursue a career where there is space for me to develop and mould myself into a working adult that faces challenges in work, promotions, bonus. Which my current job does not provide. I will not be satisfied in this current job although it is way too comfortable.

Sometimes, I feel like quitting my job so as to push myself harder to look for new jobs. As a greater sense of urgency. But thinking about the lost in income makes me brushed away the idea.

I know I can do so much more in life. Now, I am just living everyday happily, waiting for Tintin to marry me (haha), and nothing else. Life is simple. Yes. But I know myself. I am not the kind of person who is contented with easy tasks, average pay, simple life.

I want to meet new challenges, new goals, higher living standards, climbing up the corporate ladder. That is what I look forward and see myself in life.

Urgh! Can anyone help me or instruct me what to do? I really think I need to find a new job before the new batch of graduates finish their exams and get poured into the working society.

ends at 6:51 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2008Y
Sentosa KM8 31 Mar 2008

Baby boy brought me to Sentosa last 2 weeks ago on my offday. Came to pick me up in the late morning and ate lunch at the nearby coffeeshop. When we reached Sentosa, he was on his way to KM8 while I suggested trying Cafe Del Mar(CDM) as I have never been there before. He rolled his eyes, and blamed me for not saying early. So off we go the roundabout to U turn for Cafe Del Mar. Then after while he said CDM difficult to park, must walk very far, park the beach carpark still must pay $$$, so KM8 can anot... I ok lor... So we roundabout again to KM8. Machiam never go roundabout before lar.

One thing about this Tintin hor, is that once he tried and affirmed that this particular thing is good, forever he will stick to this item. Even if you tell him another item is better or comparable, he wil reject you flat in the face and tell you he will still prefer the original item. Without even asking or trying the alternative. Very straight one la him. Which is totally the opposite of me. Eg, even I find this brand of compact powder or anything I bought is good, I will still buy another brand in hope of better suitability. You never try you will never know mah. And keep using the same thing and doing things the same way not sianz meh??

Ok back on the track. Anyway, we found a nice spot and rot there. Ordered a jug of drink and relax under the clouds. NO SUN THAT DAY. So disappointing. To make things worse, no swimming in the sea coz of oil spill. Double sianz. Michael joined us after that, and 3 of us simply rot and gossiped. Haha.

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My little boy is so resourceful that he can play with anything he sees, be it a towel, umbrella, or comb. Sometimes I see him I also want to faint. If next time our son be like him ... ok I can't imagine.


Then we saw a dog name Champion, and his facial expression is exactly like Elmo. Even Tintin said so. I have never ever seen a dog that look so much like Elmo, not even the same breed from the silky family.


Looking at Champion makes me miss Elmo so much. I wonder when will I have the chance to see him again. My boy, if I can and if I have the opportunity, I definitely will take you with me. Mummy misses you so much.

He might be the naughtiest dog you have ever come across, but from those naughty acts you are able to find the intelligence in him. He follows you everywhere around the house, but once you see a puddle of urine on the floor, before you can even turn and look at him, he has already ran away. He knows he is not suppose to urine on the bed, make him angry and he will just purposely do it. He knows when I am sad. I dunno why. When I am sad he will come and sayang me, and try to act cute. When I cry he wipes(licks) away my tears. When I am wounded or in pain he tries to make me feel better by licking the wound. He might be unreasonable and stubborn at times( how come sound like me), but he is also the most caring dog. I have not seen him for a billion years, and he is growing old. Might not be as agile as his younger days. Years has passed and my Elmo is already 6 years old. I really hope that I can see him soon and he still remembers me.

Anyway after Sentosa, we met up with Cat and Crix for dinner at Seoul Garden. I dared Tintin to eat what he labelled as gruesome ladyfinger, with the reward of me paying the bill for the next 3 outings. He insisted on 5 since he was making a huge sacrifice, and after some negotiation and compromising we both agreed on 4. He tried eating the ladyfinger for at least 15 minutes, with much hesitation and reluctance. But for the sake of the 4 outings, he braved up all his courage and stuffed the ladyfinger inside his mouth. The whole process was darn funny la. But poor me had to pay for the outings. The damn ladyfinger is worth alot of money can.

FIist Outing: Dinner at Swenson's followed by movie Semi-Pro. Spent $80++
Second Outing: Dinner at KFC(my suggestion to cut my cost, haha) and movie Untraceable. Spent $35++
Third Outing: Dinner at Rabbit Brand eating house and mj at Crix place, and then supper at Mac. Spent $34.
Fourth Outing: Dinner at HK cafe and KTV at Party World. Spent $75

Total $224.

The stupid ladyfinger is worth $224 leh. Heartpain. Then Tintin said I very stingy. Haha. And that I should know how much he always has to spend when we are out together. (^)*_$%&$&) Stupid Tintin.


ends at 9:30 PM

Sunday, April 06, 2008Y
Bangkok Trip yr 2008

I have heaps, and I really mean by heaps of photos with me now. But I am damn lazy to post. So lazy that I dread blogging. Partly explains the serious lack of updates. Hee hee.

Well, just let me dig through my photos folder and see what we have got here...

Haha. Ok here's one. Valentines' Day (like 2 month back??) *blush

Tin Tin brought me to Jack's Place at Great World. I forgot what main course we ordered. I think I ordered steak while he had lobster But the Lobster Bisque and Escargot were damn nice.









After that he brought me to Night Safari. Pics inside there were rather dim, so I shan't post them up. Lazy also la...




Haha my little boy is so cute. And here is the pretty flowers.

Conrad photos are still inside my camera's memory (yeah clever me brought a camera without memory stick inside) wait till I search for the cable.


Next... Bangkok trip with Crix and Marianne. We had a hellava good time there. Everyday walk walk eat eat. And I really must comment on the hotel. It was damn nice and cosy can! Pullman King Power. Thumbs up!


Day 1
Went straight to Crix house after work and we played mj all the way till morning and his mum sent us to the airport.

All eyebags and dark circles are evident.

At the airport fooling around





And most importantly, the hotel room!!!

Can see the bed from inside the toilet...


Bathtub and next pic View from wardrobe




View of toilet when lying on bed

The room is kind of open concept with walk in design. The back of the wardrobe is a sliding door, which leads to the toilet bowl, and the wall connecting the room and the side of the toilet is also a sliding door. We both agreed must buy refresher coz wait pangsai stink the whole room. Haha.

We went around searching for money changer and praying to four-faced Buddha after taking a short rest.

At night, we met up with Crix's friend for dinner at Greyhound cafe at Central Chitlom. The food there is super super nice! Regardless tomyam soup, italian spagetti or pigeon wings, all taste yummy!

Tin Tin fell asleep while waiting for the friends and he decided to air his armpit. Hahaha.



The mall was having midnight shopping that night and we shopped till past midnight before taking the train back to the hotel.



After reaching the hotel we continued playing mj. -_-"'

Day 2
Shopping at MBK and eat eat eat!



Early dinner at Dino bbq, followed immediately by bird nest



Next... make a guess...

Who is this??

We went back to the hotel early as we planned for Tin tin's surprise mini birthday celebration. We asked for a cake suddenly from the hotel at 10.30pm, and the cake was sent to the room at 11.30pm. Efficient or not you tell me!







Well, my birthday boy was of course delighted and pleased as he wasn't expecting it. Best of all, he won all our money during mj. *roll eyes*

Day 3
Chatuchak (my personal fav)

Not much pics as all time were spent shopping, But we discovered this stall that sells delicious chicken noodle. Despite the humid and scorching weather, each of us had 2 bowls of noodles ok!




First serving... Everybody eat kway tiao... shiok...



2nd bowl... Maggi mee...






After Chatuchak we went back to the hotel for a rest and shower, and off to Central World!





After some shopping we went suan lum night bazzaar. Took a tuk tuk there and the ride was damn thrilling. The harder we screamed or laughed, the more reckless the driver drove! He was laughing all the way too. And Marianne was super high can. She was so excited and jumpy.





Shop shop and shop until we were all tired and took another tuk tuk back to hotel.

Day 4
Ocean World. Woke up slightly abit later as everyone were tired after the past few days of enduring waking up early.






















After Ocean World me and Tintin took a boat ride along the river to Khaosan... because I want to do a erm... Tattoo.
On my right lower back... Shhh... promise me you won't tell mummy ok?

Crix and Marianne left to meet Crix's dad's friend for dinner.

We joined them back in the hotel, and his uncle brought us to a German brewery for a drink. Chilled out till 11 plus and went back.


Tintin was busy packing the luagage, trying means to stuff all our things into the bags while I sat on the bed watching TV and eating fried soft shell crabs. He is really spoiling me badly la. So many trips with him and I never once pack and unpack the luaggage. I hate doing packing. And he always made sure all my things are in one bag, those I need to use like toiletries are put nicely at a corner and stuff. See my boyfriend is the best!

Day 5

An overview of the scenery from the room.





Waited awhile for the other couple and went to the nearby mall for lunch at MK.






After the lunch we went to the DFS just beside the hotel and soon Crix's uncle came to pick us up for thai massage.






Can you see both me and tintin are scared tickling of our foot sole? Cannot take it man. After the full body massaage that lasted 2 hours, uncle drove us to the airport. But we stopped by the road side and had a bowl of wantan noodle. Wah even the roadside stall is fantastic sia. *drooling


And we bidded farewell to Bangkok. We will be back soon!


ends at 3:04 AM